BXBX NOVEL Chapter 280 - Why Will I Hate My Son?
"Good." Elizabeth said as she smiled at him...
They all together had their lunch silently but he can sense that Elizabeth and George smiling at each other from time to time...
He just wants to get out form there... But not before, he talks with George first.
They all had their lunch and Elizabeth got up from her chair and walked out of the dining room to the kitchen.
"Care to tell me What is going on?" Xavier asked George making him look at him.
"Huh? What do you mean?" George asked.
"Don\'t act innocent... Okay? I have heard your both conversation in the kitchen." Xavier answered.
"What?" George asked with a suprised face.
"Yes... So now... Tell me what is going on between you both?" Xavier asked making George sigh.
"You heard everything right? That is what happened between us." George answered.
"Are you serious?" Xavier asked.
"I am... We have been apart from past 25 years." George answered making Xavier sigh.
"You hated her just because, she loved someone else?" Xavier asked.
"No... Not because of that... But I have forced myself on her... But she gave in to me... With still... Keeping someone else in her heart!" George answered.
"And that mistake was me... Right?" Xavier asked.
"It\'s not a mistake... But... You are the reason of our love." George answered.
"But you hate me right? Because Mom got pregnant with me... When she has someone else in her heart right?" Xavier asked making George sigh.
"You don\'t like me because of that right? I can understand." Xavier said.
"Xavier... It not that..." George replied.
"Then how it is? Don\'t try to lie to me... I have heard you saying, I am a mistake... And you hate that mistake... This is right!" Xavier said with anger.
"Are you crazy? I said, you are our beautiful mistake... And no, I don\'t hate you. You are my son. Why would I hate you? Yes, your mother has someone else in her heart at the time she give in to me... But... She started loving me... She realised that, my love has more importance than her love... That is why, she gave in to me... Why would you think it negatively?" George asked.
"Because I don\'t believe you." Xavier answered making George sigh.
"Xavier... I really don\'t know how to make you understand... But, remember that... No one in this world can forget someone who they loved. Yes, they will always have a place in their heart... They might hate the other person a lot... But, once upon a time, they had loved that person... It\'s hard to take them out of our hearts... But we will just get over them... And move on... Because we aren\'t their soulmate... They will be our past... We can\'t go to our past... But we will live in present. We need to love that person who is in our present and making efforts in the relationship... And your mother has realised that lately." George said.
"She realised that very lately, Xavier... But until she realised it, I couldn\'t wait for her love... I want to know her how much I love her... Just because she is not recognising the effort I kept in her... And our relationship... She realised lately that, I have been trying to make her understand that how much I crave for her... But until she realised how much I love her, I did what I wanted... I did a mistake. And only I know, how much I suffered all these 25 years... Keeping my feelings and emotions to myself by being her my side every second... Under same roof... Same room." George said as tears rolled down in his eyes.
"Only I know... What I went through... I couldn\'t look into her eyes... She tried... She tried her best to talk to me... But, I was just... You know, hated your mother..." George said.
"You think, I don\'t love your mother and hates her... But you still don\'t know the truth... You only think, I made your suffer so much... But you have never looked at me and tried to talk to me... What I did so far was for us... I am not cruel... Even if I say truth to you, you won\'t believe me... Because all the evidence are against my side... And I never did something in my life for you to make me believe me at this stage..." George said as he took a deep breath. Xavier just looked at him... His father keeping his feelings out in front of him for the first time in his life... He just looked at him as he talk without blinking his eyes...
This is the first time ever he had this conversation like this with his father... For the first time with his father... He always talk to his mother and try to tell her about himself because she understands him well... But somehow... He felt his father intemidating and he couldn\'t voice out his feelings to his father just because he felt George cold towards him... But he failed to recognise that his father is always like this and it\'s his nature that he is like this... But this time, Xavier knows that he is triggered... Because keeping feelings like this in their hearts for 25 Years can make someone suffer a lot... And that is by seeing the person every single day but didn\'t make any effort to communicate like this... He can understand how hard it must be for his father to keep his feelings like this for 25 years... But at last, Xavier is still confused on if this is his real father... And his face or is he just acting like this? He wanted to know more from his father by talking to him but seeing him like this for the first time... It breaks his heart that his father is just so strong than anyone...
This is something that he never thought he would see in his father\'s nature... But for the first time ever in his life... He has seen something new in his father.