BXBX NOVEL Chapter 5: All of that is just a virgin’s delusion
Chapter 5: All of that is just a virgin’s delusion
I was sitting up straight whilst rubbing my swelling red cheeks and Lili was there glaring at me.
I probably don’t need to say it but I just got slapped.
「In other words, you don’t want to be laughed at for being a virgin and terrible at sex, so you want to practice with Lili, is that right?」
「….. Aren’t you forgetting to add “devi” to the end of your sentences again?」
「Shut up. Just answer the question.」
「Yes…. To put it in plain terms… Well that’s about right.」
「……I’ll kill you.」
Lili shows an unexpected amount of anger and I draw back instinctively.
「W-wait a minute! Lili is also partly to blame. Wearing something like that around all the time, people would think that about you! Or more like aren’t you a demon? Do you care about chastity issues?」
「Lili is a woman before she is a demon! If you tell me that you want to practice on me to have sex with another girl.. how can I put it…. You are an idiot!」
I was at a loss for words but what she said makes sense.
「But didn’t you tell me that you would cooperate with me to increase the overall magic prowess of the demon world?」
「Guu…. I did say that but…」
「I mean, come on Lili is also extremely cute. I definitely want to do it with a cute girl for my first time.」
「Eh, I-I am cute? You think? ehehe.」
Eh? Somehow this is an unexpected reaction.
Don’t tell me Lili is weak to compliments….
「That’s right. Therefore, you know!」
「Yeah, okay…. Is that what you think I would say?! Idiot!」
「It failed huh….」
Seeing my dejected appearance, Lili breathes out a long sigh.
「Geez…. Just when I thought you were becoming more eager, it always comes to this. After kidnapping a girl all the boys can think of is how to do ecchi things with them…. Ahhh I’ve had enough of this, this is the worst!」
「Well, you know I think its too much to just kill her right?」
「What do you mean? isn’t it way better to just kill her cleanly.」
「Y-You… is that all you demons are about?」
「Don’t assume about us demons!」
「In any case! I have no intentions of killing her, okay!」
「Muu…..」
Lili’s cheeks are swollen.
The fact that I didn’t choose to murder Kurosawa-san is something that Lili seems to feel dissatisfied about.
Her outer appearance is really cute, but when she gets angry her inner self is not cute at all.
「So if I don’t kill her, I will have to release her at some stage right? so I need to figure out a way to silence her. In that case wouldn’t it be better if I can do ecchi things to her and make her fall in love with me and make her listen to my commands…?」
「Are you stupid?」
Lili looks right at me and focuses.
「Th-Then how about this! Don’t you have some sort of magic that would turn her into my slave or something?」
「Magic you say?」
She makes a scoff and laughs through her nose.
「This isn’t a manga.」
「Coming from you!?」
「I will tell you this now but! Things like using magic, hypnotism, or having great enough sex that you would be able to make the girl fall in love with you and do your bidding, those kinds of things! All of that is just a male virgin delusions.」
「What!? How dare you break a boy’s dream with such harsh words!」
「It is the truth.」
「You’re so mean…. Damnit! Shittt!」
When I started to bang my head fists against the floor in zealous frustration, Lili puts her index finger in front of me and clicks her tongue “Tsk, tsk tsk”.
Seriously, she is kind of annoying.
But she’s still cute. It is quite aggravating.
「You are jumping to the wrong conclusion. Did you not realize it? There is something I haven’t said in the things I listed」
「Eh.. What is it?」
「Brainwashing」
「Brain washing? Isn’t brain washing… the same thing as hypnotism?」
「That’s not right. Baka.」
When I showed an indignant expression on my face, she acted like she was all high and mighty as she thrust her nose up and began to explain.
「Alright listen up okay? The common sense of you humans is something that is not absolute. For example, ideologies like food shouldn’t be wasted, people should be kind, friends should be treasured, all of these teaches are things you humans learn when you were young and that is what becomes your common sense. Do you understand? If you can destroy and tear down that common sense, you can plant a suggestion that is convenient for you to replace it. That is what brain washing is.」
「Uwah… That sounds super difficult.」
「Of course it is difficult. But the thing is, brain washing is one of our demon’s favorite past time party tricks. It is the thing we do best. What do you think? if it’s this I don’t’ mind teach you」
「Really?! T-then certainly please do! Lili-sensei!」
「Teacher? Nfuh, you are calling me sensei now huh? Well, we don’t have time to waste, lets begin the spartan training… devi!」
Suddenly remembering about it, she began to add devi to the end of her sentences again.
Apparently she has recovered her mood a little.
Just like that, under the guidance of Lili-sensei I began the constructions of the Kurosawa-san brainwash program.
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「I am hungry…」
I tried to use my voice to say this.
Of course there was no one to reply to my words.
「I want to eat fried chicken and also manju’s. I also want to eat strawberry cake. I want to eat potato chips and drink milk tea….」
I want that. I want to eat this, the more I think about it the more it difficult it becomes and gradually I feel like I want to cry.
Guu… *stomach rumbles*…
In the middle of the night the sounds of my stomach keeps echoing.
When that disgusting man left some water for me to drink my thirst subsided but came with it was thing craving for food and the hunger pangs are becoming unbearable.
(How long has it been since I eat anything?)
The last thing I could remember was eating a croissant and salad for breakfast. I am now regretting the fact that I refused it when my Mama offered to cook me a friend egg.
Even so…. compared to before I drank water, this is still a lot better.
I heard that if you have water, it isn’t easy to starve to death and that seems to be the truth.
I have this modelling friend who used to do a fasting diet, so I think that I should be fine… at least for now.
I can’t remember the exact date we are in. because I’ve been in this pitch dark room, I can’t even tell whether it is daytime or night time.
My physical condition is the worst.
I can’t think of anything other than food and my energy levels are horrible. My stomach hurts and it feel sick.
Moreover, I feel like my head feels really hot like I have a fever that makes me hazy.
「Haa….」
I can only breathe out a sigh.
Still holding on to the water bottle I lie down.
The sound of water drips.
I can feel the sensation of the water inside of the bottle shaking.
I need to portion the water. Even though I wanted to portion the water, only 1/3 of the water remains in the bottle.
Adding to the fact…. I still have no awareness of the situation outside.
I don’t know where I am, there are no windows and even when I place my ears against the wall I can’t hear anything. When my smart phone battery ran out I got angry and broke my phone. There is no way I can ask for outside help.
「To think that this is a room made from the power of demons…」
I still think that it is a lie.
A lie just to make me scared.
The only thing I know for sure is that disgusting man has confined me in this room.
I never thought that someone like him would even have the courage to do this type of thing.
Even though I was on the brink of death, to think that I would have to beg for forgiveness to such a guy, poor me.
Saying so myself, I am a beautiful model girl you know? A performer…
Even if you collect 100 ordinary people, I would still be worth more than them.
The world is so unjust. Truly I am so pitiful…
Even so..
“I will let you do me!”
When I remember the words that I said to him, my feet and hands just want to kick and struggle.
(Ahhhhhhhhh! Why did I say such a thing!? To be honest, that type of person has no qualification to even touch my hair!)
Of course I must be delusional.
I was just so thirsty and my throat was so dry and hurting that I just wanted some water. If his goal was to do ecchi things to me I just wanted him to get it over and done with and give me water to drink. When I started this line of thinking, the words just came out of my mouth reflexively.
「I want to die….」
No, that’s a lie, I don’t want to die. But the amount of self-loathing I have for myself is amazing.
When my own muttering voice stops echoing, the room once again returns to a painful silence.
At first I was feeling angry and frustrated and I continued to kick the wall and shout and scream. However once the battery on my phone died, I started to feel uneasy.
In the pitch-dark room, nothing besides the sound of my rumbling stomach could be heard. That’s the only sound in this room. I don’t think I have ever been afraid of being with myself until today.
That’s why even though I really didn’t want to feel this way, but when that disgusting man came into the room, I honestly felt a bit of relief.
「Will he really try to kill me…? I think he wouldn’t go that far right?」
The reason I am speaking like this is because my sense of reality is starting to go out of whack.
However, if he didn’t give me any water I might have already died at this time and if I can’t eat anything, then it may be possible to really die someday.
Since that disgusting male left, I wonder how long it has been?
It might be weird to say this but, even if it is him, I can’t wait for someone to come back….
Noticing what I was thinking I started to shake my head to get rid of such thoughts.
This isn’t right. It’s not like I wanted to meet him.
Inside of this pitch-dark room, it’s just that my mentality has weakened and its just really hard… that’s why..
It’s just that if that man doesn’t come back then I can’t really go home either.
“I have no interest in bitches”.
He did say something like that but somehow it also irritated me to hear it.
Who does he think I am?
Having no interest in someone like me, it’s clearly a bluff on his part.
I really, really wanted to avoid it at all costs, but if there is a chance that I can get out of here. I really thought that I could let me do something ecchi to me just this once.
It’s a lot better than dying.
Of course, the moment I got out I would let the police know about it.
Even if I had to do something ecchi, it wouldn’t be the first time I did it.
Last week, I already gave myself to Jun-kun.
My initial experience was painful, however I also felt warm, kind and fluffy. I really felt happy.
Therefore, even if something is done it isn’t as big a deal.
I can just think of it like a stray dog biting me.
Apart from that, not being able to meet with Jun-kun gives me this unbearable feeling.
I trace the brand logo ring finger that Jun-kun gave me as a present whilst closing my eyes.
「Jun-kun…. I really want to meet you.」
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「Okay-devi, it’s perfect-devi!」
I have been learning the brain washing program since Saturday morning and she was in the middle of teaching. It was only six o’clock on Sunday the next morning that it all ended.
「Will it really be okay with just something like this?」
「Ahh! You don’t believe in me-devi? This is akin to teaching a dog it’s manner’s-devi. It’s what I like to call the carrot and the stick. Anyways, the first step is to make them feel scared, if you go easy on them it wont work-devi!」
「But… as expected I don’t really agree with violence…」
「You can just use light amount of force-devi. After all, she would be close to dying from hunger anyways.」
「Well that is also true. She has only drank water in the last three days. If I don’t be careful she might really die.」
「But three days is actually the perfect amount of time.」
「How so?」
「This is about the time that her mental barriers collapses.」
「What’s that?」
「To explain it in simple terms, let’s see-devi.. It’s like gasoline-devi. If the human body doesn’t eat anything, the brain which requires glucose to work is used up and it starts to produce an alternative to substitute the required glucose-devi.」
「Alternative subtances?」
「That’s right. Something to replace it. The alternative materials are going to be highest 72 hours after the fact. In other words, it will peak on the 3rd day-devi. During these few days, the mind will become less quick, She should drop to about the intelligence of someone who is drunk.」
「I see.」
Lili seemed like a silly girl, but when it comes to this topic she seems really knowledgeable that it is surprising. The demon race must do this type of thing on a daily basis.
「At any rate, the first thing is a test of strength. From here on you should sleep and get some rest-devi. When you wake up we should begin the program-devi.」
Saying that Lili gives me a thumbs up!
「With this you will be able to graduate from being a virgin-devi!」