Chapter 425 Her Selfish Desire
They held each other for a long time.
Continuing to talk about their feelings, honesty, and communication, Alice told Axel about the lab. About her time there and the memory that had demanded her return.
She told him about knowing that Holden would come for her, knowing that he would always find her.
Axel looked up at her with care. Holden was a monster, and she knew that better than anyone. But he was still her father. So he couldn\'t help but wonder how she would take the news.
“Alice…” he said, reaching up and gently placing his hand on her cheek. “There is something I need to tell you.”
Alice leaned into his hand and smiled warmly.
“What is it?” she asked.
Axel took a deep breath.
“When I first got word that you woke up, Caleb and I were at the lab,” he said.
Alice sat up and looked at him.
“We were looking to see if there was anything salvageable,” he continued. “And while we were there, we found a room… a panic room. It was in the lab where the children were.”
“A panic room?” she asked. “I had no idea… is that where Holden escaped to?”
Axel nodded.
Alice sighed.
“I\'m sure he knows every hidey-hole and exit of every building he walks into,” she said, shaking her head. “Always an escape route to guarantee his survival.”
“Not this time,” Axel whispered.
There was a jump in her heartbeat, a slight gasp, and the smallest widening of her eyes. If it were anyone but Axel that watched her, they would have missed it all.
“You mean…” she asked, without asking.
Axel nodded.
“He was trapped inside… and there was an explosion.”
Alice\'s eyes narrowed, and her brows furrowed.
“An explosion? Inside the room?” she asked.
Axel nodded.
He saw the wheels turning in her mind. She had the same thought he did. Holden was not someone that would kill himself or be careless enough for an accident in a room he was trapped inside of.
Axel reached his other hand up and held her face, pulling her attention back to him.
“Tomorrow,” he whispered.
“What?”
“Think about what it means or what really happened tomorrow,” Axel clarified. “Tonight is the full moon. We may not be able to run through the trees, but we can still celebrate each other and our bond.”
Alice smiled and leaned forward, kissing him gently. Axel had been on a rollercoaster of emotion over the past few days. But now, all he wanted was to be with her in every way.
The tears they had shed dried away, and the sorrow in their hearts became a desire.
Axel and Alice poured themselves into each other through kisses and soft touches. They peeled away the layers of clothing that came between them and shared their deep feelings of loneliness and longing through the connection of their bodies.
Axel was hesitant to be too aggressive in his advances, with Alice having just recovered, but Alice felt more alive than ever.
She felt stronger, hungrier.
As he tried to move against her in a gentle rhythm, Alice squeezed herself around him, pulling him deeper inside her as he grunted and groaned out the surprise and sudden pleasure.
Alice rolled her hips as she tugged at his hair. Axel could not hold back the urge to thrust up against her harder and faster.
“Yes!” Alice cried out, gripping tighter to his golden locks. “Yes, please… harder!”
Encouraged by her words, Axel held her tightly as he let go of his control and thrust into her with wild abandon.
Alice\'s eyes shot open wide, and she cried out with each thrust as a jolt of pleasure shot through her body.
They both felt the climax approaching. Their need and desire flowed back and forth between them as the pleasure grew and grew within until they both screamed out with the overwhelming warmth and delight of their shared orgasm.
Alice clung to Axel, panting into his shoulder as her nails dug deeply into his back. She let out soft gasps as her walls continued to clench around his still, mostly firm cock.
Axel let out heavy breaths against her chest, giving soft kisses to each breast as he felt the gentle squeezing around him, already preparing him for another round.
His tongue slid along the line of flesh between her breasts, tasting the sweet saltiness of her sweat. The soft whimper that escaped Alice\'s lips and the gentle way she was already beginning to rock her hips while he was still buried inside her filled him with primal urges.
“Axel…” Alice whispered.
Axel mumbled a question in response. His lips pressed to her skin, and the vibration sent tingles through Alice, making her close her eyes and lose focus for a moment.
“Mmm…” she sighed.
Axel smiled and nipped at her flesh.
Alice rocked her hips roughly, drawing a gasp and a soft growl from Axel. Alice smiled, reached her hand into his hair, and tugged gently so that he looked up at her.
The dark stormy hazel looked up at her with hunger, almost making her forget what she wanted to say. She almost lost herself in that desire that stared back at her.
“Axel,” she whispered.
“Yes?” he replied, keeping his eyes on her as he moved very gently inside her.
Alice bit the inside of her lip to help her focus.
“After everything you have learned about me…” she whispered, letting out a soft pant as a jolt of pleasure shot through her. “After everything I have done….”
Axel stretched his tongue out to flick the hard nipple of her breast. Alice gasped and tugged on his hair once more.
“After all that?” Axel asked, tracing his tongue around her nipple as he encouraged her to dare to focus on something other than what he could do to her.
She licked her lips.
“Are you still sure that you want to embrace me? That you want to have me by your side?” she asked.
Axel pulled his mouth away from her chest and looked up at her. She looked back at him, her face flushed, her eyes filled with desire, but something else hid behind them. A softness. A vulnerability.
“I\'m not sure I can survive without you anymore,” he replied honestly. “Believe in me, Alice. Believe in what we share. Not just the bond, but what we mean to each other.”
Her eyes turned glossy as he saw tears gathering.
“Then is it really alright… for me to want a future?” she asked.
Axel\'s heart ached at the gentleness in her voice. At the honest request for permission.
“Is it ok to selfishly wish to stay by your side as the only woman you look at? To want to be with you, even if I can\'t be useful to you as a Luna?” she asked. Her voice shook as tears rolled down her cheeks.
Axel reached his hands up and wiped away the tears. He smiled.
“The only person that could ever stand in the way of that is you,” he whispered.
He pulled her down for a soft and tender kiss. Looking into her eyes as they pulled away again.
“Promise?” she smiled.
Axel licked his lips and leaned forward, kissing her throat and chest.
“All you need to do is tell me what you want, Alice…” he whispered against her, his warm breath dancing along the skin of her sternum.
She drew in a sharp breath at the sensation. Her chest rose and fell with him still holding his place inside her.
He smiled as he felt the slight twitches of her walls each time she felt him move or grow.
“Tell me,” he whispered again, his hands moving down to her hips, squeezing gently as he turned his lips to kiss the inner curve of her breast.
Alice licked her lips and closed her eyes at his touch.
She reached down and lifted his face to look up at her. His eyes filled the desire he held for her. But as always, a deep affection stared back at her.
She sighed warmly.
“I don\'t want to be a weapon anymore,” she whispered. “I don\'t want to be a spy.”
Axel stopped his movements. He looked thoughtfully at her, then his expression softened, and he smiled at her.
“When this war is over,” he said. “I promise.”
Alice believed him, and it gave her a relief she wasn\'t expecting.
“Is there something else you want to do?” he asked.
Alice swallowed, and her body stiffened. Axel could feel the change. Whatever it was she was thinking of, this was her true wish. Her ‘selfish\' desire.
“What is it?” he asked.
“I want… to have a family,” she whispered hesitantly. “I want… to be a mother… to your children.”
Axel\'s eyes widened, and then he grinned.
“You said what you wanted was something useless to me,” he replied, reaching his hand up to touch her jaw gently. “But a family… with you….”
He slipped his hand behind her and pulled her down to him, gently touching their heads together.
“That is everything to me,” he whispered against her lips.
Alice let out a soft laugh. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him.
As she pulled away, Axel surprised her by lifting her in his arms, breaking their connection. Alice gasped at the sudden movement and the loss of him.
“What are you doing?” she asked.
Axel pulled her tightly against him as he stood up. Alice clung to him.
“We should wait for the war to end before starting a family,” he stated as he moved across the room. “But until then, we should practice as much as we can.”
Alice laughed as he threw her onto the bed, promptly jumping onto her like the beast he was for her.