Chapter 254 There Is No Other Solution..
The only creature that was allowed to get that close to Isiah was Eijar due to their connection with each other, he was comforted by her presence around him a lot.
Because with her he knew that he was not totally on his own, that he was not a threat and that he could feel someone closer to him without having any extreme thoughts to kill .
Just having the sensation of her skin upon his skin was making him get calmer for a bit , it felt more like sedation but it was not .
The urge was still there even while she was around him .
" Master, I am not going to ask you to breath or calm yourself down, that desire to kill more is going to be huge, it will only raise after this , if you feed it will stop until you kill for another time"
Isiah couldn't open his eyes, he wanted to close them and make his mind believe that he was not there but the smell was too strong for him to ignore .
He was shivering as if he was a drug addict which made Eijar say to him:" Master, If you are only going to think about this point you are going to miss a lot of things as a result that, do it, please do it "
" I swear I am not going to kill anyone until I find some sort of a solution to fix this, I swear to you " He begged with a quiet voice .
Eijar was confused by what has gone to Isiah, he was not acting like usual , and it felt like he was in immeasurable pain due to his dilemma.
He wanted more power but he couldn't accept the burden that came with it, if he was going to kill people for revenge he needs to start accepting the urge to feed.
Eijar was an animal after all and she couldn't understand why he was having such a hard time .
At that moment, that memory from his first life crossed his mind, the incident when his chick died and the other chick started to eat his insides.
Isiah puked right away when he remembered that incident, he pushed Eijar away from him gently and puked impulsively on the ground.
He was sitting on the chair but when he started puking on the ground he kneeled on the ground and he was throwing up there feeling terribly each second passing .
Isiah collected his fist and hit the ground because he couldn't stop throwing up, at that moment his stomach was empty but he was throwing up non-stop which was painful .
And even when he had a high tolerance for pain , the psychological pain that came with that incident was more harmful to him .
" Master, there is no other solution to this, listen to me Isiah , this is going to be awful you keep resisting this way " Eijar was shouting at him while she was next to him on the ground.
He was sweating heavily as he said slowly after he hit the ground for the second time:" Eijar…you …"
At that moment, Lexie entered the room terrified of the sounds she was hearing all that time, she knew that Isiah was in no condition to talk or even have a conversation, she knew also about the hunger but she didn't know how it really affected him.
" Is he okay , he was throwing up for a while now, if he needs help we can search for someone who could use healing magic to help him" Lexie asked Eijar with so much concern in her eyes .
It appeared that she left Ciel up there and she came to see if they needed any help.
Eijar said immediately to her:" You need to go away , like, now , it is not safe for you to be here "
Lexie was not safe here anyway , and all that she thought about was that Isiah was never going to ask for help even if he needed it badly .
" Let me find someone who could help him " Lexie argued with Eijar.
At that moment, Isiah was resting his head on the floor trying to breathe more, and to not think about that incident , however, the more he tried to erase it from his head he felt like it was vivid in his mind.
" Aggggggh …Eijar ….Eiajr …I am …so …." Isiah said with difficulty while his eyes were still closed .
Eijar shouted at Lexie saying " You are irritating him with your presence, leave right now , leave , lock the door behind you, and protect Ciel , it is your job here "
He didn't have to say anything because Eijar was feeling all that he felt, pushing Lexie away was the best thing .
Lexie stayed away from Isiah, she didn't leave the room but she stayed next to the door in case they needed her ignoring what Eiajr said to her .
" Do the ….do the same thing …do the same thing you did to me in the world beyond " Isiah said as he hold his head between his hands while grounding to his teeth
Eijar knew immediately what he wanted so she got closer to him and crawled towards his neck,the results were not promising because he was so nervous and irritated and edgy but the way he was acting gave her a hard time focusing
" Hey…do it …just do it " He said when he sensed her hesitation .
When she first did this and she ended up giving him a nightmare he threatened her not to do it again , she was never going to do this but when she saw him in this deep pain the only thing she wanted was to comfort him for a bit so that he wouldn't hurt anyone else .
The moment she started to use her ability she felt that his brain was resisting her so much , it was not easy like the last time, she had to sedate him before entering his mind which was so difficult for her to do because of his new strength.
" Just…relax , master , I am going to do my best to relief you from this pain, but first just put your faith in me , relax , master , relax and leave everything to me , I will never fail you "
Eijar was so pissed that his mind was resisting her too even with their connection.
When he finally let her go inside of his mind to perform her ability she noticed a tear falling from his right eye then he fell asleep immediately.
The way Eijar was treating him made him realize that Isiah didn't want to surrender to his hunger even when he was killing people with no consciousness.
' What is the difference between killing and eating what you kill, if you have the power to kill them then you are already a bad person , at that state I don't even think if there is a difference, all I know is that those people are not going to mind that'
Lexie couldn't understand Isiah's motives and she ended up looking at him while he was unconscious on the floor.
She felt jealous that Eijar was the one next to him and not her .
There was nothing that she could do for him to relieve him, it was the second time for her to sit there while he is in a deep struggle without having the power to help him .
" Why are you standing there, be useful and clean the floor, I don't think that he would like to be reminded of what happened when he wakes up again" Eiajr said while a grey circle was on top of Isiah's head .
" Is he going to sleep for long ? " Lexie asked .
" I don't know, if he stops resisting I guess, he was not in a good state when I forced him to sleep , it will not be for long, I am not certain " Eijar answered while looking at Isiah with sad eyes .
Lexie cleaned the floor with her magic so fast then sat next to him .
She put his head on her lap carrying Eijar with him too .
Eijar was pissed because of her presence there but she didn't say a thing .
Lexie started to brush his dark long hair with her palm gently, she always wanted to do that , it was her only chance to do something like that and she wanted to do it to calm him on her way too .
" You know that what you are doing is useless right? When he wakes up again he will go back to be Isiah Duncan who hates you so much " Eijar said while looking at her this time.
Lexie didn't reply to her , she just looked at him wishing that this moment will last forever.
" What you did to him was so messed up, you never defended him, you left him there to die , you deserve how he is treating you, he hates you so much , I could feel it too, you just have to stay away from him, this is my advice"