BXBX NOVEL Chapter 358 - 358: You Already Knew?
Xie Shi’an was stunned.
He looked deeply at Ruan xiaoshuang. “Sister Xiaoshuang, can you tell me why?”
When she fell off the cliff, he had sent people to look for her for a long time, and the media reports were all over the place.
However, she didn’t contact Xie Shi’an ever since she was saved.
When they finally met again, she didn’t want to return to the Ruan family?
“You know the reason.”
Ruan Xiaoshuang smiled. “You know, I’ve always wanted to be an ordinary person. But now, in Song Yu’s eyes, I’m really an ordinary person.”
Her tone was light but firm. Obviously, she had thought it through very clearly.
“Let the name Ruan Xiaoshuang be a thing of the past.”
For the first half of her life, she had been under the Ruan family’s protection and had no worries about food and clothing.
However, the Ruan family’s shadow also weighed heavily on her, making it hard for her to breathe.
Of course, she had some happy memories.
However, most of the memories consisted of depression, regret, and pain that made it difficult for her to fall asleep every night.
She was like a runaway in the vast ocean, and since Song Yu was holding her back, she also tried her best to hold on to this floating piece of wood.
She didn’t know how long she had to struggle before she could draw a line between herself and the past.
However, this boundary was too fragile.
The moment she returned to the Ruan family, she would inevitably be reminded of the past.
It wasn’t easy for her to get this peace. Alas, the safety she had been deceiving herself with could easily disappear.
She didn’t want to repeat the same mistake.
Xie Shi’an was silent.
No one knew Ruan Xiaoshuang’s past better than he did.
Because of her identity as the Ruan family’s Second Miss, she had no choice but to give up on the person she loved the most and wanted to spend the rest of her life with when she was studying abroad.
From then on, she was depressed and never smiled for several years.
There was once when it was cold late at night and it was raining. She walked alone in the rain and was completely drenched.
Xie Shi’an ran up to her with an umbrella and shielded her from the rain. The moment she turned her head, she was like a dead lake that suddenly lit up with the light of stars.
Her eyes were so bright and so happy. She excitedly called out a name that Xie Shi’an had never heard before, “Minglang.”
However, the moment she saw Xie Shi’an, the light extinguished bit by bit, leaving only unspeakable sadness and loss.
At that time, Xie Shi’an was still a teenager and was ignorant of the word ‘love’.
However, he could also vaguely guess that the person called ‘Minglang’ was someone Ruan Xiaoshuang could never forget. He was the source of her constant frowns all those years.
However, he didn’t know how to persuade her, so he could only silently accompany her to walk for a long time in the dark rain.
“Shi’an, if I wasn’t Ruan Xiaoshuang and was just an ordinary person, how good would that be?” Ruan Xiaoshuang muttered.
At that time, Xie Shi’an did not understand why she would say that.
However, later on, when he met Sang Qianqian, he had no choice but to submit to Ruan Cheng and resign from his doctor position before leaving Yuecheng.
Only then did he understand the helplessness and pain that was deeply embedded in his bones behind that occurrence.
Most of the time, they had no choice but to give up the things they loved because of this identity.
Just like what Xie Shi’an was doing now.
If he could, he would rather be a doctor than be the Xie family’s heir.
Xie Shi’an’s emotions were inexplicable. When the words reached his mouth, they only became six sincere words;
“Sister Xiaoshuang, congratulations.”
Ruan Xiaoshuang smiled, her eyes bright and soft. “Thank you, Shi’an.”
Sang Qianqian could not understand the exchange between the two.
She had thought that with Xie Shi’an and Ruan Xiaoshuang’s sibling-like relationship, he would definitely persuade Ruan Xiaoshuang to come back.
Even if she didn’t return, he would probably still insist on giving her a part of the Ruan family’s assets. At least, it would ensure her livelihood.
She didn’t expect Xie Shi’an to only say “Congratulations” without any extra words.
“Shi’an, it’s fine that you didn’t persuade Sister Xiaoshuang to come back, but you even congratulated her.”
Sang Qianqian was puzzled. “What are you congratulating her for?”
Xie Shi’an’s tone was meaningful. “I’m congratulating Sister for finally being free.”
From now on, she could spread her wings and fly to any place she wanted to go, choose anyone she liked, and no longer be shackled by the past.
Sang Qianqian was a little confused and did not quite understand Xie Shi’an’s words. “I don’t understand.”
Wouldn’t Ruan Xiaoshuang be free after returning to the Ruan family?
She could still be with Song Yu, and live the life she wanted.
Seeing Sang Qianqian’s confused expression, Xie Shi’an unconsciously smiled and raised his hand, wanting to touch her head. However, he realized something and his hand eventually fell to the side of his body.
Now, facing Sang Qianqian, Xie Shi’an had to remind himself to have self-control, but his emotions were always stirred up.
In the end, he only looked at Sang Qianqian and said gently, “It’s fine. You don’t need to understand.”
Sang Qianqian’s childhood experience was different from Ruan Xiaoshuang’s and Xie Shi’an’s. Therefore, she might never understand their desire to cut off their past and identity.
“I’m not satisfied with your answer.”
Sang Qianqian raised her eyebrows. “However, for Sister Xiaoshuang’s sake, I will not argue with you.”
She actually hoped that Ruan Xiaoshuang would come back. That way, at least Xie Shi’an would be able to look after her.
However, Ruan Xiaoshuang had already made her decision, and even Xie Shi’an had no objections. It would be inappropriate for her to persuade any further.
There was a slight sound in the room. Ruan Xiaodie had woken up and mumbled, “Brother Shi’an, I want to drink water.”
Xie Shi’an was about to go, but Ruan Xiaoshuang suddenly stood up. “I’ll go. I can accompany Xiaodie.”
Ruan Xiaodie was particularly afraid of strangers, but blood relations seemed to work in a strange way.
She hadn’t seen her sister for a long time and only had a very vague impression of her.
However, with Ruan Xiaoshuang by her side, she was very quiet. Although she might not understand some of the words her sister said, she would still respond in a decent way.
Sang Qianqian and Xie Shi’an were both touched. Not wanting to disturb the two sisters, they turned around and returned to the living room.
Xie Shi’an asked in a low voice, “How did you and Sister Xiaoshuang meet?
Have you met that Song Yu? How is he?”
Sang Qianqian replied to all of them, “Song Yu doesn’t seem to have any evil intentions with Sister Xiaoshuang. He seems to really like her.”
Xie Shi’an heaved a sigh of relief. “That’s good. I’m just worried that she might’ve met a bad guy.”
“I don’t think so.”
Sang Qianqian thought for a while and decided not to mention Song Yu’s father.
When they had talked about this in the car, Ruan Xiaoshuang had told her not to worry. When Song Yu’s father found out that she had nothing to do with the Ruan family, he wouldn’t have any hope. She could only hope so.
“Shi’an, I have a question to ask you.”
Sang Qianqian looked at Xie Shi’an. “When you saw Sister Xiaoshuang, you didn’t seem to be surprised that she couldn’t see. You also didn’t ask me how her eyes were injured.. Don’t tell me you already knew about this?”