BXBX NOVEL 207 Chapter 207
"I--I'm willing to do it with you, Vernon. Please just let me stay with Mackie, until I have enough saving to leave New York--"
"STOP! I SAID STOP, CHLOE!" Vernon yelled out of frustration.
He snatched Chloe's hand that was unbuttoning her shirt and locked both of her wrists, making sure that she couldn't undress anymore.
Vernon was desperate to wake Chloe out of her nightmare, "It's my fault... Everything is my fault. Please stop...."
Vernon felt his heart had been shattered into pieces. He was so close to on the verge of crying. He couldn't even imagine himself shedding tears, but seeing his Big sis Chloe in this distressed state was like torture for him.
He knew he wasn't a good man, and he was very petty and held a grudge against his Big sis Chloe. Thus, he got the idea to humiliate her by turning her into his personal prostitute.
'I got what I wanted, I ruined her...' Vernon thought. 'But why does it hurt even more when she's in so much pain like this?'
'Is this really what I want?'
Vernon kept repeating that last sentence over and over. He wondered if he had done too much or shouldn't have done this in the first place.
He hated her so much for the past ten years and wished her to experience the same humiliation that Vernon got back then. He wanted her to beg for his mercy;
But when he saw her current condition, he felt nothing but a knife shredding his heart. He couldn't handle this and even thought he should forget those humiliating words that Chloe had said about him back then.
Vernon buried his face in Chloe's stomach and started sobbing like a little boy who had been left alone for so long.
His sobbing actually woke Chloe up from her daze. She saw the big guy who was supposed to be the powerful man with the world in his hand and cried while burying his face in her stomach.
It reminded her of how much of a crybaby little Vernon was. He would cry over the smallest thing possible and always come to her for comfort.
He gently caressed his hair and asked, "Vernon, why did you cry?"
"Because I can't see you like this, Big sis...." Vernon replied while he continued sobbing. He called her Big sis Chloe, but he didn't care if he sounded childish or whatever.
He just wanted to comfort her and also her comfort at the same time.
"I didn't know that I had hurt you so much...."
Chloe's mind gradually cleared after she rambled nonstop out of fear. Maybe it was his cry or the way he hugged her so dependently.
But she felt obligated to comfort Vernon as his Big sister figure, despite how much pain she bore daily.
"Vernon, I don't blame you. It's not your fault that you may see me as a worthless cheap woman--"
"YOU ARE NOT! STOP LOOKING DOWN ON YOURSELF!" Vernon yelled as he didn't want to hear her talking in such a self-deprecating manner.
"It's the truth...." Chloe said nonchalantly, feeling there was nothing wrong with her statement. "So, if you want to use my body, as long as I can stay with my daughter--"
Vernon looked up and stared at Chloe in disbelief. She looked so convinced about her statement that she was a worthless woman.
'This is not the Chloe that I know growing up...' Vernon thought. 'She was smart, bubbly, and bright. But she's now just a shell of her former self. She doesn't even have a light in her eyes....'
Vernon remembered the bright aura exuded by Big sis Chloe back then. She wasn't born into a rich family, and her clothes were very modest as she didn't have enough money to buy something expensive.
But she was beaming with confidence. She didn't mind mingling with the 'rich folks' in many of the Gray family meetings, and she could mingle well.
She became very popular in the Gray family circle simply because she was a joy to be around.
'I can't even imagine how bad was the abuse she experienced in the hands of Vincent--fucking--Gray,' Vernon thought. He didn't know why his Big brother, whom he looked up to so much, was able to do many cruel things toward Chloe, but he would NOT forgive his Big brother.
Vernon already hated him in the first place, but this was the last straw, 'I will do everything to bring you down. Once I know what you've done to my Chloe, I will make sure you experienced the same,' Vernon swore in his heart.
Unfortunately, the sunshine girl that could charm everyone had long gone. She didn't even look people straight in the eyes now. She mostly lowered her gaze to avoid staring at other people's eyes, including Vernon.
'She did that to me many times before. I always thought she was disgusted with me...' Vernon thought. Vernon had many unanswered questions regarding her, especially the real reason why Big sis Chloe could be so cruel to betray him.
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"So, Vernon, I--I am ready--" Chloe stammered as she thought Vernon still wanted to play with her body so she could be pardoned for hurting him last night.
Vernon shook his head and buried his face in her stomach again, "You don't need to do that, Chloe. You are pardoned."
'I should be the one who begged for your forgiveness, Chloe. I've also contributed to hurting you for so long by making you my sex toy. I'm not even sure what I should do to get rid of this guilt in my heart.'
'But I want you to tell me everything, Big sis Chloe. I want you to trust me for everything....'
'I know it will be a long process, and I probably will struggle a lot to be patient with you as I also have an anger issue. But I want to be your guiding light, just like what you did to me when I was just a little kid.'