BXBX NOVEL Chapter 320 - 320: What’s Wrong With That?
“Many times, I really want to lose my memory, but I can’t forget it. Those beautiful things have always been forgotten, constantly forgotten, and some of them can’t even be remembered at all. However, those saddest things have never been forgotten. They can’t be forgotten, and they keep on revolving in my mind… ”
“Tan Qing, tell me, how can you forget the person who gave you the most pain in the world? If there was such a method, I would definitely learn it.”
“Some people say that humans have a very short memory for happy things, but they have a deep memory for unfortunate things. Pain is the hardest to forget. Therefore, the most unforgettable thing was never the happy thing, but the painful thing.”
“You’re right.” Tan Qing sighed softly.
Painful things were always hard to forget, and no amount of happiness could dilute the pain. If there was no pain in a relationship, it could only mean that there was no love at all.
Because he didn’t love her, he didn’t feel pain. That was why it was too easy for him to forget and walk into the next embrace.
Love would eventually hurt, and pain would eventually be difficult to forget. Therefore, after loving someone fiercely, it was like dying once. After losing the ability to love, no matter what, he could not go all out like the first time.
Because she had experienced the most painful feeling, she always had a grudge against the next person and was instinctively afraid that she would be hurt again.
Therefore, after loving someone, one would always want to find someone who loved them. Because they didn’t have to pay, they didn’t have to feel sorry, and they didn’t have to be hurt again. Even if that person left, they wouldn’t feel too much pain because they didn’t pay or love.
“But Shengxia, have you tried to face him?”Tan Qing continued.
“Face it?”
“Yes, stop running away and don’t use amnesia as an excuse. Be your Li Shengxia and face that MO Nianchen. If you can do it…”
“I can’t do it.” Li Shengxia interrupted Tan Qing.” To be Li Shengxia again, I have to endure a lot of sadness and pain. I have to face my self-esteem and heart that was once torn to pieces. I can’t pick up the pieces of the past and piece them back together. It’s too difficult…”
“If you can’t even face him, how can you be happy? How could he live with another person?”
“I don’t need happiness. I don’t need happiness. I don’t deserve such a thing. I
just need to be stable, get rid of him, and find myself.”
“You didn’t do this to find yourself, but to lose yourself. At any time, he should not do such a thing for a person. Why don’t you need happiness? Why can’t you be happy? Why shouldn’t you be happy? Why aren’t you worthy?”
Li Shengxia’s face paled at Tan Qing’s question.” I…” I’m not good in any way. I’m simply useless. Moreover, I’m a single mother. No one wants a woman like me, and no one needs someone like me. I don’t know how to take care of people and even messed up my life. I…”
“What’s wrong with that?” Tan Qing interrupted.
Li Shengxia looked at him in surprise.
His voice became gentle.” What’s wrong with that? I don’t know how to take care of others and need others to take care of me. I can’t see what’s wrong with raising two cute children who are strong, optimistic, and independent.”
“At least, there is one person who has always thought that this is good and wants to protect this beauty.”
“I never thought that you didn’t deserve to be happy. I never thought that you deserved to be unhappy. A girl like you, kind and cute, has her own dreams, and won’t easily cling to others. I don’t know how good it is.”
“Li Shengxia stared at Tan Qing blankly. She had never thought that she was like this in his heart.
She had always thought that in his heart, she must be a woman who always caused trouble and needed him to clean up the mess.
Li Shengxia felt a little flustered.
“Tan Qing, I’m not as good as you say. The reason why I was like that was because I had no other choice.”
“Then, if there is a person who has everything you want and need, and you rely on him, you can have what you want. You don’t have to be independent anymore, and you don’t have to run around for life anymore.”
“You don’t want to.” Tan Qing said,” That’s why I said that it’s not that there’s no one around you that you can rely on. You just choose not to rely on them because you have your principles and persistence. It’s because you’re kind and pure and don’t want to hurt others.”
Li Shengxia fell silent.
Tan Qing paused and continued,” Because you know that there are still things in your heart that you can’t let go of. There’s still someone in your heart that has been occupying your heart. You can’t make space for others.”
“I…” Li Shengxia was speechless.
Tan Qing looked into her eyes and said seriously,
“Shengxia, I like you very much. It’s not just the kind of love you think I have. I’m willing to protect you for the rest of my life. I can go through fire and water for you. I can give you everything you want. Because you haven’t chased him out yet. I know that you don’t want to hurt me.”
Li Shengxia’s eyes widened.
He continued,” That’s why I’ve never forced you or forced you to make any decisions. I think that as long as you’re willing to be by my side, it doesn’t matter what our relationship is. As long as you can think of me when you’re sad and want to talk, I’ll be very happy. Because I know that you’re giving me a chance, giving yourself a chance. Even if I can’t be your lover or your partner, at least I can be like your family.”
At the end of the sentence, Tan Qing’s eyes were filled with tears.
It was clearly an opportunity that he had obtained with great difficulty. He had gotten her to personally say that she was willing to get engaged to him, but he had crushed this opportunity.
If she made such a choice, she would only be unhappy from one point to another, then he would rather not have it.
He would definitely regret it. From the moment he finished speaking, he regretted it from this second onwards. However, he knew that he did not do anything wrong. He did not do anything wrong…
“Tan Qing…” Li Shengxia burst into tears.” I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry! You
were so good to me. hilt T said stich outrageous things to you T used von as a
tool to escape and let you down.”
She blamed herself for saying that she wanted to get engaged with him to escape from MO Nianchen.
Tan Qing did not say anything. Instead, she turned around and reached out to gently wipe away her tears.
She didn’t dodge, but her tears continued to flow, and she couldn’t wipe them away..