Chapter 190 - 190: 190: The human heart is the hardest thing to comprehend.
Chapter 190 - 190: 190: The human heart is the hardest thing to comprehend.
Suri understood the reasons Sherry Woods gave, she knew it all too well in her heart, the only problem was getting past it all.
Sherry Woods gave a silent, watching her daughter’s hesitance, sighed, and said, “Suri, when Yigol came to the house, he told me something, do you want to know?”
Suri quickly questioned, ‘What has he told you?”
Sherry Woods patted her daughter’s shoulder, “Don’t worry, he didn’t disparage you. He told me that you actually love me a lot, you’ve never blamed me. The only thing you begrudge is that I wasn’t strong enough, lost myself due to betrayal by a man, and you’ve always hoped I could become stronger.”
“Your efforts to strive hard and not to rely on me are actually to tell me that a person can depend on herself without needing anyone, isn’t that right, baby girl?” Sherry Woods asked Suri with tearful eyes.
Suri pressed her lips together, not speaking a word.
Sherry Woods wanted to have a heart-to-heart conversation with Suri, and even though she didn’t respond, her reaction had already given the answer. Sherry Woods continued, “He said that I should get out more, go to work or travel, do things I want to do, and if I need money, he would take care of it.”
“He wanted me to get employed not for the job itself, but to experience the outside world, anything would suffice.”
“You both hope that I could go out and see the world, rather than wallowing in the past. In reality, aren’t you in the same situation? Once bitten, twice shy. You still can’t fully accept Yigol because of what your father did, in the end, you just can’t get past your own heart’s hurdle, unable to forget your father’s wrongdoings, right?”
“Both Yigol and your father come from humble beginnings, your father was a good man when he first started dating me, seems flawless. But still, he ended up abandoning us.”
“Suri, are you afraid that Yigol might one day become like your father?”
Suri hesitated for a moment, then nodded her head, “Yes, but that’s not all, I just haven’t thought it out. Mom, don’t worry too much.”
Sherry Woods patted Suri’s hand, “My child, how could your mother not understand your feelings? Everything is written all over your face. Let’s discuss something else, you always said that I shouldn’t have indulged your father so much right? Do you want to know why?”
Sherry Woods said with a calm tone, “Actually, the reason I indulged him so much was because I loved him. I was always a bit lost and under the impression that as long as I gave him enough freedom and took care of him well, I gave him all I could. But I ended up being disappointed, he chose to betray.”
“Later, Yigol and I had a chat, and after that I thought thoroughly. That wasn’t true love, or at least it wasn’t a proper way to love. Loving someone should not cost your own identity, or let them do whatever they want. My behavior led our relationship to imbalance. A true relationship needs balance.”
“One should not be too stubborn, nor be without a temper. You and I are two extremes, I didn’t have a temper with your father but you are being stubborn. Everyone’s patience has a limit, if you continue being stubborn you might exhaust Yigol.”
“Remember one thing, my child, a man needs his dignity outside the house, but at home, not so much. Thus, no matter what happens, you should always respect him among others. Also, before doing anything, think it through carefully. Don’t be selfish, and don’t be selfless.”
Suri nodded seriously after listening.
How can she not know these truths? It’s just she couldn’t convince herself.
Sherry Woods continued, “Actually, your father and Yigol are completely different. So, you shouldn’t compare him to your father.”
Suri hurriedly asked, “How are they different?”
Only after asking did Suri realize she had exposed herself, she was indeed worried that she might lose, that she might suffer immensely just like her mother.
People’s hearts are the most difficult to fathom.
Just like back then, her mother also thought her father was perfect in every way, but in the end, he strayed and betrayed.
She really wanted to believe in Yigol. In fact, she couldn’t find a single mistake with him, but she was afraid.
Sherry Woods explained, “Your father and Yigol are not the same kind of person at all. When I first met your father, in today’s words, he was a total loser, he had nothing. Everything he has now, you could say, was all given by me.”
“I’ve always been very considerate of his self-esteem, therefore I tried not to interfere with him, silently contributing. But unexpectedly, once he had all the money, he was swayed by the material world. I only found out later that he had been unfaithful to me since shortly after your birth, he was just disciplined at that time.”
“But Yigol is different. He was rich when you met him. He is so rich, but he still treats you well. Look at his life, so simple. He isn’t interested in the bustling outside world.”
“He hasn’t mentioned you to his family till now. He told me that in his parent’s eyes, he is expected to be a loser. Finding a wife and having a child in the future would be great, even a second marriage would be acceptable. If he cared about those materialistic things, how could he let his parents look down on him with such achievements?”
“In a nutshell, the more I interact with this son-in-law, the more I like him. The feeling this child gives people is just too steady. Your father wasn’t like this. His mind was always filled with various weird ideas, and once he had money, he became restless.”
Suri nodded silently.
Yes, she has always known about Yigol’s character. It’s just that she hasn’t been able to figure out the differences between Yigol and her father. Now that her mother has pointed them out, Suri understands.
The unease in her heart starts dissipating.
At this moment, Suri sincerely felt relief in her heart.
After showing Sherry Woods around their new house, Suri insisted on sending her back..