BXBX NOVEL Chapter 190: It'll Be Our Secret
Chapter 190: It\'ll Be Our Secret
Roka needed to focus on her body to keep herself from gulping at those words.
To help with her problem? That could only mean…
“W-W-What the hell are you saying?”
“Hm?”
“What the fuck are you suggesting?”
“I’m just saying that together we can… Make your problem disappear.”
“H-How so??” Roka shouted, blushing intensely.
“Huh…” He scratched his head. “I didn’t expect a virgin not to even know how the deed is done.”“I do know!!”
The Paru smiled as he stepped closer.
“So why are you asking how?” Only a step separated them now. “Isn’t it obvious?”
Roka couldn’t fight it back anymore. She gulped, and slowly lowered her gaze towards the Paru’s member.
“Y… You… That’s…”
A torrent of thoughts chaotically passed through Roka’s mind.
‘It’s too big. I want it. I can’t. I’ve been fantasizing about it. I want him to touch him. It wouldn’t work. I’ll finally stop being a virgin. It must be a joke. He isn’t being serious. I want it. I’m…’
“So…” The Paru took that final step. The distance separating them was no more. “What do you say?”
“Y… You…”
Roka gulped, and a nervous smile appeared on her face.
“You’re joking, aren’t you?”
The Paru’s lips curled up, and Roka froze noticing that his hand was moving.
His curled index finger gently pushed her chin upwards, while his thumb caressed her cheek.
“I am?”
“Y-You must be!” Roka chuckled nervously.
But he wasn’t chuckling.
He stared into her eyes, and his thumb, which had been caressing her cheeks, moved closer to her mouth, stroking her bottom lip.
“Well, if I must be… Then I suppose I am.” The Paru smiled, staring into her eyes.
“You are… Aren’t you…?”
The Paru pulled back after a silent moment, and turned away.
“As I said, I can help anytime.” He said. “You just have to ask, or come to me.”
By the expression on her face, it wasn’t clear what Roka was feeling.
The Paru couldn’t figure out whether she was embarrassed or angry.
There were definitely moments when she was more angry than embarrassed before but…
“Don’t say a word of this…” Her tone was cold and sharp. “To anyone.”
“Does that mean you’re taking me up on the offer?”
“Don’t tell anyone about this.” She started walking. “Let’s continue scouting the area.”
Roka walked past him, and the Paru stared at her back for a moment.
His gaze inadvertently moved towards her hips and butt Despite being covered by her long coat, their outline was visible. Such a body couldn’t be hidden easily.
“Yes…” He chuckled. “Commander.”
The two walked with Roka remaining two steps forward.
He could tell that she was trying to say something, but was having trouble finding her words.
“Alright, so…” Roka started finally, rubbing her forehead. “I’ll talk about it this way because you’re an outsider, okay?”
“Sure.”
“W-Whether… Whether I’ve had some experience or not… Isn’t really the issue. Alright?”
The Paru scratched his head.
‘She’s really going to make sure that I understand every sentence?’
He sighed.
“Alright.”
“You just… Can’t start… A rumor like that, alright?”
“A rumor? But it’s true so-”
“Just..! Alright?”
“So the issue isn’t you being a virgin, but the others thinking of you as one?”
The words echoed in Roka’s mind repeatedly.
You being a virgin~
You being a virgin~
You being a virgin~
“Can you stop repeating that?”
“I… Didn’t…?”
“Ugh…” Roka rubbed her eyes. It was a troublesome, annoying, and embarrassing discussion to have. “Listen…” But she felt it was necessary. “I’m their Commander, alright? I can’t… Have something like that be out in the open.”
“Hm.” The Paru scratched his cheek. “You think they would lose respect for you? By learning that you’re a virgin?”
“Of course, they would! I mean… Who wouldn’t? It’s embarrassing and…”
The Paru tilted his head to the side slightly, thinking for a moment.
“I don’t think they would. I mean… I can’t see Liz lose respect for you because of that, or-”
“Yeah, sure. Maybe not Liz. But the others?! Raya is always looking for ways to annoy me and make me look like shit. Well, she doesn’t do that as much now, but… And Rea! I don’t even want to imagine being seen as a loser by her. It’s always a competition with her, you know? Everything is. Me going silent when we talk about guys is already embarrassing enough! Ugh… Let alone if Jay or Al hear that. They won’t say anything, but they’ll definitely start… Anyways…”
“Hm… I guess I can see that happening.”
“So make sure you don’t start rumors, alright? You’re not… Part of our… Well… You’re…”
“An outsider.”
“Yeah. I…” Roka scratched her head. “I don’t mean to sound rude. You’ve helped us tremendously. Much more than we could ever thank you for. What I mean is that I am not your Commander.” She turned to face him. “You don’t owe me anything, and I have no authority over you. But I can’t have them challenge my authority, words, and orders. Especially not when we’re so close to the goal.”
“You think that them knowing that you’re a virgin would impact the mission that much?”
“It’s not them knowing that, but them thinking that.” Roka said, her teeth grinding. “There’s… Nothing to know.”
“Can you drop it? I’m an outsider, so stick to your non-virgin narrative with the others, alright?”
“…”
The two continued patrolling the area, mostly silent.
Roka tried breaking the silence with remarks and whispers, but the Paru seemed mostly uninterested.
“Alright, um…” She scratched her wrist.
The whole area had been circled around and cleared, deemed safe. There was no Alpha from the Wizzos in sight, or a tribe of Graniliths in close proximity.
“So…” Roka started, but went silent rather quickly.
“So?”
“I am a virgin.” She admitted. “But… You know… Keep that to yourself.” Roka turned towards the spaceship. “Let’s head back.”
“No, I’m staying outside for a bit longer.”
“Alright. So… I can count on you, right? To keep the secret?”
The Paru’s lips curled upwards as he started turning away.
“Sure, your virginity will be our secret.”
“…!”