Chapter 73: Well, That Wasn't As Terrible
At first, the crazy woman was surprised to see this side of Rukiya, and she loved that she was getting to see it. She wanted to get hurt again, so she could have Rukiya blow on her wound and hold her gently.
Hawi wanted to stay in this spot with Rukiya, staring into the loving eyes of the woman who had cared for her from the very first day, but then she realized that she was staring at Rukiya with warm eyes, something that she shouldn\'t have, according to her.
She had promised to hate Rukiya for the longest time, but the warmth and safety she felt when with Rukiya was making her feel like there was more to this than just her rebellion.
She looked like a kid who was rebelling and Rukiya was the one person who understood her the most.
"I didn\'t say to make me feel even more cold. Don\'t you know how to tend to wounds? Goodness woman, the one time I trust you to help me out you turn out to be a wind whistler. Why don\'t you whistle your way back to Greyson, huh?" Hawi said rudely as she glared at Rukiya.
She knew that what she was doing was mean and was going to fuck up Rukiya even more but then it wasn\'t like she was supposed to care for her. She hadn\'t planned this and Rukiya always showing up for her was distorting her plans.
"I\'m sorry, I didn\'t mean to hurt you. Tell me, love, does it hurt when I lift it like this?" Rukiya asked as she raised Hawi\'s leg a little. Hawi\'s wolf was healing her but it didn\'t seem fast enough, maybe because Hawi had run like crazy ignoring the thorns.
This woman would easily be the death of Rukiya if she wasn\'t careful.
"I\'m fine," Hawi bit back and Rukiya just arched a brow at Hawi, as if to tell the stubborn alpha that she could either be a meanie and they would stay here the whole day, or she would respond and Rukiya would help her out with the pain.
"Fine, it hurts a little. Why are you glaring at me like th—"
"Hawi, we can do this all day, baby. And you know I would love to stay in isolation with you, but not when you\'re hurt. So you can either let me fix you up, or I\'ll carry you back to Clarkson and make sure to pass by the Sicario gates while at it.
"Wanna try me, love?" Rukiya dared grimly, and Hawi wanted to call it a bluff, but the sincerity in the Greyson Alpha\'s voice and the raw warning in it made Hawi fold. She hadn\'t expected to fold that quickly but then Rukiya Greyson was so hot when she was mad.
An angry Rukiya was distracting to Hawi and she kinda loved this version of her. Sure, she didn\'t want to be the object of Rukiya\'s anger, but maybe it would be the perfect way out of her pain and the intense sound of her breaking heart, right?
"Yeah, right. Maybe if the worlds come apart. Are you forgetting you\'re the Greyson alpha? Or has your insanity got anything to do with the fact that you\'re always showing up around me like a shadow I can\'t seem to shake?
"You know that\'s kind of rude, alpha Greyson," Hawi said as she stared right into Rukiya\'s eyes, daring the Greyson alpha to do anything to her or even challenge her. She was a little too close to Rukiya\'s face and by the time she noticed it, it was too late to pull back.
"And you do remember that I\'m in love with you, right?" Rukiya whispered as she slowly moved towards Hawi, not minding the fact that the distance between her face and Hawi\'s face was thinning so fast.
She loved it though.
Hawi could feel her breath hitch in her throat as she was at a loss for words.
She had initially been brave because of everything that had happened and as sure that Rukiya Greyson wouldn\'t try anything with her, but now that she could feel Rukiya\'s breath on her lips, Hawi knew she had fucked up.
Maybe she shouldn\'t have dared her to do this, maybe she shouldn\'t have gotten so close, but why did she feel so pleasant in this position? Why did she feel like this was the best thing that could have happened to her after the obviously shitty day she was having?
Could this go on forever?
"How could I forget that? You keep shouting it to anyone who wills to listen. The universe probably takes you seriously like that. I\'d be tempted to believe you too, but I\'m not,\'\' Hawi said, correcting herself as she stared right into Rukiya\'s eyes.
She loved what she was seeing in the alpha\'s eyes and if this had been a different state, in which she didn\'t have to worry about her future and her vengeance, Hawi could have given in to the pull that was clearly between them.
But she couldn\'t, or rather, she wouldn\'t let herself give in to it. She just couldn\'t afford to let one more person in, at the risk of being betrayed again. Betrayal had ruined her one too many times and she wasn\'t ready for another strike at her heart.
She couldn\'t handle it well this time.
"I\'m glad you know that," Rukiya whispered as she ran her thumb on Hawi\'s beautiful plump lips that were calling to her.
She had been imagining what these lips felt like and now that she was so close and could see them, she had to admit that they were the most inviting lips she\'d ever encountered.
"What are you doing?" Hawi whispered huskily, as she stared at Rukiya\'s lips; and maybe she wasn\'t thinking right too. This was not something that she would ever think of doing and yet at the same time she felt like this was a rare chance.
Maybe she was getting deluded too but goddamn, she wouldn\'t be complaining about Rukiya being the source of her delusion, right?
"I should be asking you the same, love. What are you doing, baby?" Rukiya asked as she pushed a stray strand of hair that was on Hawi\'s face.
Being this close to Hawi was making Rukiya\'s heart beat a little too faster than she had anticipated and she was worried about doing something that could make Hawi hate her more.
Rukiya wanted to close the distance between them, but she knew that the action itself would probably end up with her in broken bones because Hawi would probably fight her, but she would never fight Hawi. That was something she had promised herself from the first day.
If there came a time that she would fight, she would lay down her weapons if her opponent was Hawi, but if she had to fight for Hawi, then she would do whatever it took to be there for her crush.
"Making a terrible decision," Hawi said, slamming her lips on Rukiya\'s, an action that Rukiya didn\'t expect much less from Hawi, but she certainly wasn\'t going to complain about.
\'Goddamn,\' was all Rukiya could think of.