Chapter 84: This Truth Hurt... A Lot
"I wonder how you survived alone in the free lands."
"The world will only save those who save themselves."
"How pathetic. And to think she wanted to get her vengeance against me. I guess we\'ve won the first round."
"She\'s crazy. She will always be crazy. Nothing can stop that."
"I hope she dies and saves us the horror of seeing her face daily."
"Death is too good a mercy for people like her. She\'s an abomination. I\'m her best friend, I have known her for long and I\'m sure of it."
"No one would blame you if you stabbed her a second time in the heart. Look at her. What a pathetic excuse of a wolf."
"Heard she was a white wolf, I don\'t see anything special about her."
There were so many voices in Hawi\'s ear and each of them seemed to be mocking her. She wasn\'t sure what she had done to get into that situation, but right here and now, Hawi knew that staying in that position would cost her more than just her mental health and peace.
So she struggled to get up, to walk away from the voices because she wasn\'t in the mood to trigger a war. She didn\'t want to fight, and not today of all the days. She could feel her head hurting and her limbs were a little too numb.
She felt like she was a stone but she was determined to get away.
\'You can do this, Hawi. Just one more time,\' Hawi said to herself as she tried one more time, but just like the previous times, there was nothing. The light she had been seeing had slowly faded while she was busy trying to get up, and her werewolf vision isn\'t working anymore.
She was trapped and she didn\'t know where she was.
\'I\'m strong, nothing can take me apart,\' Hawi said to herself but her subconscious seemed to think otherwise, because it was taunting her.
"Except for the part where you don\'t know where you are, have no clue what happened and the sun is going down on you."
\'I\'ll be fine. I am always fine,\' Hawi said as she ignored her subconscious. This wasn\'t the time for her to blame herself. She had to get out of here, so she tried retracing her steps, and everything that had gotten her into whatever situation she was in but she failed.
Everything was blank.
***
While Hawi was trapped in her subconscious, Warrior Lihle had called the alpha and the luna to come help her out. Whatever had been happening to Hawi had gone on for more than thirty minutes and that scared the hell out of Lihle.
Seeing Hawi shaking and her eyes closed while her hair got darker, was even more confusing to her. She could tell that something was wrong but she didn\'t know what; and she hoped that the alpha could tell what happened to the strongest werewolf alpha to ever live in their time.
"Damn, I didn\'t think she would be in this state," Luna Amara said when they got into her house with Lihle frantically pacing. She was trying to keep herself sane, but she couldn\'t. It was just impossible for her, given everything she had witnessed.
"What do you mean by that?" Lihle asked and the luna looked around the house, while her husband tried to get through to Hawi.
"Everything on these walls is a trigger for her," Luna Amara said as she looked around the house.
The lights were on and they could see it all.
To the common eye, the walls were filled with regular paintings of a woman who seemed to be the muse of it all.
However, the longer someone looked at the paintings, they could see Eniola Sicario, from the time she was a child to the time she was apparently murdered by her own daughter and buried in a shallow grave back in Sicario.
These drawings were products of magical visions and no one had control over them.
"What does that even mean?" Lihle asked and Luna Amara just gave her hand to Lihle who took it seriously.
She wasn\'t sure what the luna was alright at but when she entwined her hands with that of the luna, she could see everything clearly.
The drawings were live.
The woman there was always smiling, running around. They were the lifeline of a woman who shouldn\'t have died. A woman who should have lived longer, but a woman who had died in the hands of her daughter.
"But you said that her walls would be in Sicario, not here?" Lihle asked and Luna Amara just sighed defeatedly.
"Eni knew what would happen to her, and she wanted to come back home. She was our only daughter, and when she opened up and wanted her memories stored here we couldn\'t object.
"She wanted to protect her," Luna Amara said as she pointed at Hawi, who was still having a panic attack. The sight was pitiful and frankly, Luna Amara felt her heart breaking at the sight before her.
The girl deserved better than so many triggers. Sure, Hawi had made it seem like she had embraced her reality and that she had murdered her mother, seeing the last scene replay like that, was more than just triggering.
In the final memory of Luna Eniola, in the damn drawings, Hawi had seen herself walk to the gym, but make a detour to her mother\'s suite. She seemed to have had an idea that she had wanted to share with her Mom. i
Hawi had been excited, She just didn\'t know that it would be the last time she would ever be seeing her Mom.
The visions showed Hawi and her mom talking and smiling, before Hawi excused herself to the bathroom, and when she came back out, she was out for her mother\'s blood. She had clawed the luna on her stomach, more than once, but Eniola had healed herself.
Hawi was brutal, but Eniola defended herself and tried to protect Hawi.
Even when she was in pain, Eniola Sicaro had tried to save her daughter.
"They said no one saw the last moments of Eni not even Hawi, so h—" Lihle tried to make sense of the situation.
"No one did. These showed up a year after Eni\'s death. This was her house when she was a kid, so when we saw all these here, we figured it was her way of reaching out,\'\' Luna Amara said as she watched in silence as everything unfolded.
How Eniola had managed to get Hawi to calm down.
Dom and Jer were shown watching amusedly in the alpha\'s suite while their Luna was being hurt. They knew that Hawi was not in the right mind and even in sight, but they had enjoyed it. They ignored the pleas of Luna Eniola to help them out.
"Hawi never murdered Eni?"
"No. Jeremy did," Luna Amara began before continuing, "Hawi was too strong, so he wanted her dead and the fastest way to do that, without raising questions, was to murder Eniola; by the Sicario rules, Alpha Sicario was to burn Hawi at the stake."
"And Dom covered for him."