BXBX NOVEL Chapter 204 - I Feel Like I Won’t Be Able to Bear It
Chapter 204 - I Feel Like I Won't Be Able to Bear It
[……U- Ummm, Sieg-san.]
[Y- Y- Y- Yes!?]
Without a second thought, I tried calling out to her, and in response, Sieg-san’s flinched, her face turning red.
Feeling my heart jump seeing her reaction, I continued to speak.
[……I- I guess I should really go sleep on the floor, right?]
[T- That’s no good!]
[H- However, if I don’t……]
[Auuuu…… uuuuu……]
The kind Sieg-san still won’t let me sleep on the floor, but unfortunately, the situation we are in now is very different than it was yesterday.
We’re now lovers…… To describe it in words, the nervousness we’re feeling now is incomparable from yesterday.
I was very worried, especially in terms of my reasoning, so I thought of talking her into somehow letting me sleep on the floor, but with an embarrassed expression on her face, Sieg-san softly spoke.
[……H- However…… When you think about it, unlike yesterday, there shouldn’t be any obstacles stopping us from sleeping together now…… Ummm, we’re lovers…… anyway.]
[……Y- Yes.]
No, rather than not having anything, the obstacle stopping me now is a much higher wall than yesterday.
It’s just the two of us, the room is completely soundproofed, and we’re lovers…… A perfect battle formation developed to obliterate my reasoning.
[……T- That’s right. We’re lovers anyway, so there’s no problem with sleeping together……]
[T- That’s right.]
No, rather, it’s a big problem. I’m begging you here, please have some sense of security. I’m a guy too, so shouldn’t you not know what I may do?
Doing such an act immediately after dating…… Even if Sieg-san may accept me or even if Sieg-san isn’t thinking about such a thing at all…… As far as I’m concerned, I want to make sure that our relationship is deeper before we proceed towards that, so I’m not going to let my desires get the best of me here.
That said, I understand after yesterday that she won’t agree with me sleeping on the floor…… and I definitely don’t want to let Sieg-san sleep on the floor.
In that case, I don’t have any choice but to endure it…… I have to hold on to my reasoning and fight through this phase of what could be called a complete siege.
……At that moment, it was decided that it would be another all-nighter for the second day.
Just like last night, Sieg-san and I were together on the same futon.
The only difference is that we’re not sleeping back to back now, but lying face to face…… And Sieg-san, who was wearing her sleepwear, is mercilessly damaging my sense of reason, but it’s still bearable.
If we are sleeping back to back here, and if I were…… to feel surprised from touching each other’s back, I felt like the small thread of reasoning I’m holding on to would snap.
Yes, this is a kind of battle…… A decisive battle against my desire. I would only be at a disadvantage if I were caught by surprise from behind, but if I were to face her in front and stand firm…… As long as there are no unforeseen circumstances……
[……Ummm, Kaito-san…… Can I get a little closer?]
[!? ]
The unforeseen circumstances immediately swooped upon me!? W- Wait a moment, you’re going even closer than this…… No, no, wouldn’t that make our bodies touch with each other……
T- This is bad, I should somehow try to avoid this……
[……Is that no good?]
[N- No, it’s alright! Go ahead……]
……If she immediately uses that technique, I would definitely fail in avoiding this…… The battlefield really is ruthless. Unfortunately, I didn’t seem to have the protagonist’s status correction…… No, was it because I have the protagonist’s status correction that she was approaching me? Or rather, what the heck am I thinking about?
As I felt my thoughts getting confused, I saw the blanket move, and Sieg-san moved closer to me……. Wait, aren’t you too close!?
Isn’t that almost zero distance already!? I- I’m telling you, that’s dangerous……Ahh, she smells good and I could feel her breath on my skin…… No, not yet. Endure it, free myself from obstructive thoughts!!!
Feeling my heart beating fast when Sieg-san moved so close to me that our skin was almost touching, Sieg-san put her hand lightly on the center of my chest and smiles.
[……I guess it was because you’re really a man huh? Kaito-san feels robust.]
[Eh? N- No, rather than that, I’m quite weak…… Isn’t Sieg-san stronger than me?]
It was a compliment I’ve never been told in my life, so even though I was surprised, a little calmly, I asked back.
I’ve been running with Hina-chan recently, but I’ve never really exercised that much, so I think I’m still considered as a non-combatant compared to people of my generation……
[Certainly, I’m probably better than you when it comes to combat ability…… But when it comes to muscle strength alone, Kaito-san is better than me.]
[I- Is that so?]
I have more muscle strength than Sieg-san…… It’s true that Sieg-san appears to have little or no muscle mass from how she looks like, but since I’ve seen her punch Lilia-san and Rei-san flying, even though I know it’s due to Body Strengthening Magic, I don’t really feel like what she said has any meaning.
[Yes, the elves find it difficult to build up muscle to begin with…… We have lots of magic power though, so we make up for it with Body Strengthening Magic.
[I see, so it’s a racial trait huh.]
[Yes, maybe that’s why…… when I touch you like this…… I thought that you really are a man.]
[Errr, is that a compliment?]
[Yes…… You look manly and cool.]
[!? ]
With a gentle smile, Sieg-san sweetly whispered so.
I’m not used to being told that, so to be honest, I’m very happy to hear her say I’m manly…… Though when she said that with her bewitching beautiful voice, I felt my head turning giddy.
Even though I didn’t get more than a little tipsy thanks to Shiro-san’s blessing, I was still feeling hot, perhaps due to the influence of alcohol.
D- Do your best…… Do your best, me…… You should still be able to hold on, right?
As I’m desperately trying to calm my overheating head and trying to endure my situation, but unfortunately, Sieg-san doesn’t seem to be aware of my situation…… Slowly, her hand moved towards my back…… Sieg-san closely sticks to my body.
[S- Sieg-san!?]
[……Kaito-san…… Could I fawn on you…… for a bit?]
[!?!? ]
Eeeehhhhh!? Right here!? Right at this time!? A gap-moe attack from the usually dependable, mature woman, asking me to let her fawn towards me with her fleeting voice!? Stop…… Please stop…… It’s going to break. The final thread of my reasoning will break……
[……Y- Yes.]
[……Thank you…… Kaito-san……]
[Eh?]
[Hnnn……]
[ ~ ~!?!? ]
I moved my face when my name was called, but at that moment, Sieg-san’s head also moved…… and her lips lightly touched mine.
It was really just a simple lips-to-lips contact, but it was…… unmistakably a kiss… And my head felt so hot as if I had been plunged into boiling water.
[……I’m really happy…… to have met you…… and to be your lover.]
[Ahh, errr……]
[Kaito-san, I love you. I hope you’ll continue to be with me even in the future.]
[……Y- Yes.]
After announcing it with a happy smile, with a faint blush on her cheeks, Sieg-san closed her eyes and tightly hugged me.
I- I’m already at my l- limit…… N- No, I can still hold on! Not yet! I can still hold on a bit more! Be a hero, let’s exceed our limits!!!
A little later, I heard Sieg-san’s peaceful breathing, making me know that she had fallen asleep but…… Unfortunately, I guess I really won’t be getting any sleep today.
With the soft, warm feeling of Sieg-san’s body all over my body, I continued to pinch my hands until morning, desperately trying to keep it from moving……
Dear Mom, Dad——– It’s often said that the greatest enemy is oneself, and today, the battle between my desire and reason unfolded. It seems that my reason has somehow won again this time, but seriously, someday——- I feel like I won’t be able to bear it anymore.
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{Author’s Notes}
Did he just…… endure it again……
Kaito…… You’re really a monster……
Serious-senpai: [……I wanna…… go home already……]
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