BXBX NOVEL Chapter 111: Chapter 111:The Queen's Mission [3]
"We win, the demons are eradicated, and the Elven realm perseveres through some tough times but survives in the end."
Watching her nod her head and intently stare at me for more information, I couldn\'t help but ask.
"You actually believe me?"
I mean, I most definitely wouldn\'t believe some random person who says they know the future.
I would have just pushed off my entrance into the World Tree as some coincidence and not immediately assumed that person was the future.
Letting out a slight chuckle, Liana turned to face the abyss of black surrounding us and replied.
"Why not? If it\'s true, then it\'s true, and if it\'s false, it\'s still interesting nonetheless."
At a loss for words, I let out a sigh and sat up straight for a moment to take off my cloak, which was drenched with blood.
Even if it wasn\'t my physical body, I still felt weird walking around with blood on my clothes.
Laying the cloak down on the ground, which also had no affect on the grass, I laid back down and continued staring at the endless black sky above me.
"Is that mask coming off as well?"
"Don\'t you have more important things to worry about than how my face looks?"
"You know you\'re the only human in the entire world to have seen this place, right? A show of thanks would be nice."
"Haven\'t I already done enough by saving that tree of yours?"
Pausing mid-sentence, I hesitated before curiously asking.
"By the way... don\'t you blame me for all of this?"
I could have done better and done a lot more to save the Elven Tree from ever being corrupted and even prevented the need for a sacrifice to be taken.
Lily had done her best... but had I?
Every bad incident that happened in this world... wasn\'t I partially at fault for all of those?
With my knowledge of the future, I could have prevented and stopped so many deaths, but instead, I chose to start a business to make money, steal powerful items, and be selfish.
Voicing my thoughts aloud to the silent queen, I continued.
"I\'m the cause of all this...aren\'t I? Yet, you don\'t seem to mind it one bit. You don\'t seem to even have the tiniest bit of hater or anger for me..."
The burden of the entire world was on my back, pressing down on me at every moment.
Even at this moment, constant scenarios were replaying in my head.
Couldn\'t I have done more?
Wasn\'t there a world where the queen didn\'t need to sacrifice herself, and the tree was never corrupted?
Why hadn\'t I achieved that world despite having knowledge of the future?
If someone else had been in my place... they would have saved the queen, wouldn\'t they?
Why couldn\'t I? Why hadn\'t I been able to save everyone?
Every mistake I made resulted in deaths upon the deaths. Those deaths just added and added to the unbearable burden on my back.
It came to the point where I couldn\'t even enjoy vacations or talking to people anymore.
Anytime I was doing anything fun, fulfilling, or entertaining, the constant thoughts always appeared in my head.
Is this how you\'re using your knowledge of the future? To enjoy yourself and have fun?
Thousands of people die every day because you chose to have fun? Shouldn\'t you be out trying your best to save the world?
Every second you\'re not doing something to save the world is wasted. Those precious seconds you used to have "fun" or "enjoy yourself" could have saved hundreds of people.
Can you live with yourself?
Happiness wasn\'t a feeling I felt anymore.
I couldn\'t even remember the last time I thought about doing something for myself...
Every second I spent not working to save the world or doing something about the future felt like hell.
Sleeping felt terrible.
Eating felt disgusting.
How dare you waste time eating or sleeping when you have knowledge that could save thousands of people...
Like a god, I could control people\'s fates, whether they live or die, without them even knowing.
But I was a human, both now and on Earth.
I had my limits.
Lily had the main cast to share the burden with... but I had taken it upon myself to carry the burden by myself, even if it meant constant sleepless nights and deep negative thoughts.
Noticing my silence and inward turmoil, Liana stood up, took off her shoes, and stepped on the grass, the grass being slightly crushed under her physical body.
Taking slow strides toward me, Liana sat beside me and replied in a soft and sweet voice.
"You know what my spiritual contract allows me to do, right?"
Nodding my head, I replied.
"See the emotions of others."
Shaking her head, causing me to sit upright in confusion, Liana replied.
"I can see them, but I can also feel the emotions of others if I would like to."
"..."
"You know you\'re just a child compared to me, yet you have ten times my worries. So, what if you knew about the future? From your emotions, I highly doubt that you willingly chose to regress."
Putting a hand on my shoulder, Liana continued.
"No one is telling or forcing you to save the world. Honestly, if you don\'t want to save the world, then don\'t. No one is going to force you to do anything."
"It\'s your life; don\'t let how you spend it be affected by anything. Future knowing or not, you\'re just a child at the end of the day. You make a mistake, so be it."
Looking up at the endless sky in front of me, a genuine smile appeared on my face as I replied.
"Is this a therapy session? Aren\'t you the one about to die? Why am I the one who\'s being treated."
Laughing, Liana stood up and headed back to the path.
"Looks like someone\'s feeling better."
Following her back to the path, she stopped for a second and turned around.
"When I said \'don\'t save the world,\' I didn\'t m-"
Waving my hands, I laughed and responded.
"Don\'t worry... I still want to save the world, not because of anyone else. Just because I want to. That\'s all there is to it."
Turning around, Liana also erupted into laughter and headed towards the distant hut.
As we approached the hut\'s door, Liana spoke in a half-serious and half-joking tone.
"Well, I guess it\'s time."
[A/N: Well, that\'s six chapters today as I was stupid and forgot to fill up my privilege.]