BXBX NOVEL Chapter 20: [Villainess Maker]
Chapter 20: [Villainess Maker]
\'Hmm, then what the hell are you?\' I asked, tapping constantly on the armrest of the chair.
[I... I don\'t know.]
\'You don\'t know, or you don\'t trust me enough to tell me what you are?\' I questioned, sensing his hesitation.
Well, I can understand his feelings. Even I don\'t want to share too much about myself with him.
Reason?
Because I don\'t fucking trust him.
\'What\'s your name?\' I asked, as he remained silent after my last question.
[El.]
\'That\'s not your real name, is it?\' I pressed, observing the lady who brought my food.
"Enjoy your meal, sir," she said with a light smile as she passed the food to me.
"Thank you," I replied, taking the food and placing it on the table in front of me.
"..."
[What happened?]
\'I felt uncomfortable when I thanked her,\' I replied, looking at the lady.
Is my noble nature kicking in?
I can\'t even say thank you now?
"Ma\'am," I called her again, making her look back at me. "Can I get anything electronic, like a phone or a tablet? I can pay for it if you want."
The lady looked at me awkwardly before she bowed a little and replied, "I will arrange one for you, sir, and it will be on the house."
With that, she walked back inside as I grabbed the utensils and brought the soup close to my mouth.
"Bland as ever," I mumbled as I drank the soup. I couldn\'t taste any flavor or sensation from the food.
And... For the rest of my life, I will have to live like this, never knowing how food tastes.
Just the thought of it depresses me.
[Wait... are you not going to ask anything from me?]
\'Look buddy, you are the last thing I have to worry about,\' I replied as I drank the soup just to fill my stomach.
[Seriously... What is wrong with you?]
\'Everything,\' I replied, shrugging my shoulders. \'Everything is wrong with me.\'
The sound of footsteps approaching pulled me from my thoughts, and I looked up to see the lady returning with a small electronic device in her hands.
"Here you go, sir," she said, placing the device on the table in front of me. "A tablet, as requested."
"Thank you," I replied, again feeling a slight discomfort.
Opening the tablet, I quickly launched the first browsing app I could find on it.
[What are you doing?]
\'Trying to find out who the [Main Antagonist] of the game will be,\' I replied before taking a deep breath.
Hesperia kingdom.
I typed it in before clicking on the search icon and waiting for the results.
And... Nothing appeared.
I tried again and again with different approaches and words, but nothing appeared on it.
"Sigh..."
With a sigh, I placed the tablet back on the table before leaning back in the chair.
[Are you going to tell me what you were doing?]
\'Hmm, you know, this world we\'re in, it\'s a world of a game or something similar,\' I replied before closing my eyes.
[And... you are not him, right?]
\'No shit, Sherlock. I would have been laughing like a madman if I were to be him,\' I grumbled in reply.
[Why?] his voice echoed in my mind.
\'Why, you ask?\' I scoffed at his words before replying, \'That fucker is going to get a harem and power that he didn\'t earn, and you\'re asking me why?\'
[So... aside from this hero person, who else is there?] Sensing my sour mood, he quickly changed the subject.
\'Well, there are heroines, villains, villainess,\' I replied, pausing briefly. \'...And then there\'s me, the villainess maker.\'
[So... you\'re special?] his voice probed.
\'...No,\' I replied, feeling a hint of bitterness. \'I\'m just the heroines first love.\'
I am a one-way ticket to a bad ending.
I opened my eyes to look at the tablet again, feeling a mixture of frustration and amusement.
Opening the browser once more, I searched for another name: Azariah Noah Aljanah.
In an instant, thousands of articles appeared before me.
"Disgrace of his family, rudest person to talk to, killer, rapist, mental patient... Woah, aren\'t I famous?" I chuckled softly as I read \'my\' history according to the internet.
[You are not the same person as him?]
\'No, I am not and in a sense I am,\' I replied before closing the tablet. \'But you don\'t know how dearly I wished I wouldn\'t be him; being him is the shittiest thing that can happen to me.\'
[Because of your body?]
\'Partially, yes, but mostly because of my blessing.\'
\'Blessing of Amun-Ra\' that I got when I was a child.
Blessing of one of the strongest Gods to ever live, but this blessing became a curse when the world got to know about it.
My body and my blessing are the most desirable things that all the evil organizations want.
A body that can work as a container and can adapt to all kinds of energy in this world.
That\'s what my blessing is capable of...
...But the problem is, my body rejects Mana and because I can\'t use Mana properly, making it extremely hard for me to get stronger.
I am basically a duck on a chopping board, ready to be chopped.
\'...And you know what\'s the worst part in all this?\' I thought as I closed my eyes.
\'If I don\'t think about how to survive by the end of this year, I will be turned into a puppet that only moves in her hand until the end of my life.\'