Chapter 175
From start to finish, Gu Qingyou did not pay attention to Huo Yutong\'s insults, and she placed a bunch of white Hyacinth s on Su Mo\'s tombstone.
She didn\'t know if Su Mo liked Hyacinth, and she also didn\'t know what the Hyacinth\'s flowery language was. She only felt that the white Hyacinth had a very pure white color, matching Su Mo\'s temperament.
The funeral lasted for approximately two hours. Gu Qingyou stood quietly beside Jiang Jun, and they looked at each other as if they did not know each other\'s existence. Their gazes were always fixed on Su Mo\'s brilliant smile on the tombstone.
Que Yan was afraid that Huo Yutong would cause trouble, and as soon as the funeral ended, he immediately left with Huo Yutong.
Gu Qingyou was stu
ed for a moment more, then turned to look at the person beside him and asked softly, "Are you going back?"
Gu Qingyou really thought that Jiang Jun would stay a while longer. She was prepared to go to the hotel to wait for him, but she did not expect him to turn around so quickly.
Gu Qingyou stood still for a few seconds, then slowly caught up to him.
When they returned to the carriage, the rain outside had already lessened a lot. Gu Qingyou quietly looked at the world inside the rain, while Jiang Jun closed her eyes and rested as usual, both of them remaining silent.
After returning to the hotel, in the elevator, Gu Qingyou was the first to break the silence, "You haven\'t eaten much in the past two days, right? "Wait for me to cook something for you to eat."
Jiang Jun did not reply.
Gu Qingyou took a deep breath, and stared at his lonely and gloomy figure in the elevator for a long time.
Jiang Jun received a call on official business, discussing the project of City H.
He was sitting on the sofa in the room, talking to his subordinate in a voice that made it impossible to tell that he was a sad person.
Gu Qingyou used the ingredients from the hotel and focused on cooking for Jiang Jun.
It reminded her of the last time in H City...
She had also personally cooked a meal for Jiang Jun, and after that, they made up.
However, they shouldn\'t have made up today. She knew ??
When Gu Qingyou walked out from the kitchen, she saw that Jiang Jun was still making calls. However, she was currently on the phone with Ai Lin, telling him about the company\'s matters.
Gu Qingyou placed the carefully prepared food on the table, then walked to the French window in the room and quietly listened to Jiang Jun\'s solemn and serious voice. It was only when Jiang Jun finished her call that she turned around and looked at him calmly.
Jiang Jun stood up from the sofa, her tall and slender figure walking towards her.
Gu Qingyou did not expect him to be so close to her. The moment their gazes met, her mind was a complete blank, and her heart seemed to have stopped beating.
However, Jiang Jun just stared at her for a long time without saying a word. His deep gaze made it so that no one could understand his thoughts.
Gu Qingyou was so silent that she could barely breathe. Finally, she opened her mouth, "I am sorry for this result ?? That\'s why I didn\'t stop Elder Brother Sheng from finding Su Mo in the end. It would be possible for me to stop them if I were to do my best. "
Jiang Jun said as she lightly parted her lips, "I didn\'t mean to blame you."
"I know." Gu Qingyou looked resolutely into the depths of Jiang Jun\'s eyes, "But I must admit to you that I have that kind of selfishness in my heart ?? I also hope that Su Mo can stay away from you and never appear in your world again. "
"In the end, I was the one who handled this matter inappropriately." Jiang Jun\'s gaze moved away from Gu Qingyou\'s face and he started walking, his tall figure standing in front of the window.
Gu Qingyou looked at him blankly, and did not say a word.
Jiang Jun\'s figure landed in the shadows of the backlight. He seemed to lightly sigh, and said in a low voice, "I have always known that her heart was extremely weak, yet I did not protect her."
Gu Qingyou smiled and lowered her eyes. All you can say between you is that creation makes a fool of people... If you weren\'t so arrogant, and if Su Mo wasn\'t so self-conscious, then perhaps your fate would have come to an end three years ago, when Su Mo\'s heart transplant was a success, and the both of you could have been together. "
"Yeah, if I wasn\'t so arrogant, Su Mo wouldn\'t be so self-conscious, maybe there would be a chance to salvage the situation ??" Jiang Jun said.
Gu Qingyou forced herself to smile even wider. Her voice was only a little hoarser than before, "Fate has always caught people by surprise, but is unable to do anything about it."
"Do you know how guilty I am now?"
"I know... "I know you feel guilty, but you can\'t revive after death. Even if you continue to grieve like this, you ??" Gu Qingyou hoped that she could say more to comfort him, but suddenly she could not.
Because her throat was suddenly choked with sobs.
"When I saw her in my embrace, wanting to touch my face, but didn\'t even have the strength to raise my hand. Looking at her deathly pale face, I kept regretting that I shouldn\'t have ignored her three years ago ??"
This was the first time Gu Qingyou had heard Jiang Jun\'s regretful voice.
He was such a decisive person. He had never regretted any decision he made, and he could always make the right decision. But now, he was just a man filled with regret. His hoarse voice was filled with deep regret ??
Gu Qingyou did her best to widen her eyes so that her tears would not congeal from the pain. She said with a smile, "From my point of view, even if you pla
ed to reunite with Su Mo three years ago, she might not have done that ?? However, no matter what, her deep affection should have been exchanged for your protection. "
"That\'s what I feel guilty about." Jiang Jun said calmly.
Gu Qingyou lifted her eyes. His usually arrogant and conceited figure was currently completely covered by loneliness and loneliness. It was as if her heart was wrapped in a thick cocoon as a stifling pain came from her heart.
"But death ca
ot bring back life ??"
Jiang Jun suddenly interrupted Gu Qingyou\'s consoling words, "The moment before she closed her eyes, she asked me if I would still be willing to meet her if time could come again. I replied her, of course I would be willing."
"She smiled at that time ??" I know she wanted to laugh at that time, and that was a very, very hard thing to do, and then she told me that her last wish was for me to be with you, and she said you were a good girl. "
Jiang Jun\'s narration made the last moment appear before Gu Qingyou\'s eyes, and she shook her head. I once thought that Su Mo wasn\'t worthy of you, now I know why you were so persistent towards her all those years ago ?? Because she deserves your persistence. "
Jiang Jun continued, her voice hoarse, "I\'ll answer her, I know, of course I know you are a good girl. She then told me that she was about to leave, can I tell her that I love you one last time ?? ??"
Gu Qingyou said in a sorrowful tone, "When everyone reaches the last moment, I think I will tell everyone what I want the most ??"
"Yes."
"Stop talking, let\'s eat ??" "Gu Qingyou suddenly could not listen to any further. "If you don\'t eat now, the food will get cold." She suddenly took a step forward, ready to leave the room.
However, when they reached the door, Jiang Jun called out to her, "Don\'t you want to hear the stories after this?"
Gu Qingyou\'s tears were already falling uncontrollably, but she quickly wiped away the tears on the corners of her eyes and face, trying her best to hold back the sobs in her throat, "I know that people always hope to find an outlet to vent in times of sorrow, but ??" "Sorry, I might not be able to continue listening ??"
"Are you sure you won\'t listen?"
"I\'m sure ??" Gu Qingyou held on to the door handle, preparing to open the door and leave, but she discovered that the lock was pressing on the password. She suddenly thought about the password that Su Mo had told her and entered it.
She was sure that the door would open. However, she didn\'t hear any \'kacha\' as she had expected when the door was unlocked. Her legs froze on the spot.
At this time, Jiang Jun\'s voice slowly drifted over, "At that moment, I saw her weak face and looked into her eyes. I saw the longing in her eyes and I knew that was the last thought she had before her death, but I don\'t know why I wasn\'t able to say those words ?? At that time, her eyes were very clear and bright. I looked at her, but was unable to open my mouth ?? "
Gu Qingyou suddenly raised her tear-stained face as she suddenly turned around and looked at him in disbelief.
He calmly narrated as before, his tone steady. "I don\'t know why I couldn\'t give her a satisfactory answer at the moment of her death. I\'m just feeling guilty ??" Very guilty... I\'ve never felt such guilt in my life, not even for you. "
Gu Qingyou began to constantly shake her head, unable to utter a single word.
"However, at the very last moment, Su Mo actually laughed... She used the last of her strength to caress my face and said, "I think I can leave without worries ??"
When Jiang Jun said those last words, his voice had already reached its utmost hoarseness, so he was unable to spit out any more words.
Gu Qingyou slowly squatted on the ground. She covered her mouth and started to sob uncontrollably.
Unknowingly, Jiang Jun had walked over.
His strong arms lifted her up and held her against his shoulder, letting her cry.
Gu Qingyou kept shaking her head. She didn\'t hug him back, but allowed her tears and snot to wet his black suit.
Jiang Jun buried her face in her long hair and said hoarsely, "I think I\'ll need a long time to calm down. Can you understand? "
Gu Qingyou\'s tears fell even harder than before ??
"So she can see more clearly than I can, quiet and serene ??" "She is indeed the person who understands me the most in this world, and I have let her down ??"
"Stop talking, Jiang Jun ??"
"I originally wanted to scatter her ashes on the campus where she and I once dated, but I felt even more guilty leaving her there with her soul, so I brought her back ?? "Therefore, I need some time to face you in peace and quiet ??"