BXBX NOVEL Chapter 52 - Divinity II
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Pandora\'s POV
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There I stood, in the middle of the abyss, looking deep into nothingness. It looked like what you would when closing one eye. You dont see black, you see nothing, like a blind man. I could tell I wasn\'t conscience, making my mind think of many scenarios of what had happened when I had finally fainted.
Suddenly, a voice sounded from the abyss, similar yet too monotone to be the same as the flame\'s. It felt like I was listening to a pre-recorded program the moment it had started to speak
"Congratulations, you have achieved divinity..." Said the monotone voice
"You shall now go through the second faze of the awakening. Please refrain from dying." Continued saying the monotone voice
Dying? What does it mean dyin- AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I started shouting, barely being able to hear the voice announcing "You shall now have the \'Divine Language\' inserted within you. This shall now allow you to speak most languages fluently and proficiently after hearing them once or twice. Divine language skill is still weak, therefore you shall be limited to only this"
After those words finished, the excruciating pain continued to ravage my mind, forcefully engraving a foreign energy within it. The pain continued for what felt like hours until it finally started to subside painfully slowly.
I finally sighed in relief when the pain had subsided to an amount that would be considered nothing compared to what it felt like earlier.
"Congratulations, you have inherited a \'Divine Language\' at a low level. Since you are still too weak to unlock its full power, that part shall be locked until your next awakening or when your vessel reaches full maturity" Voiced the monotone female voice
Just when I was about to relax, the voice continued, sending a shiver to the core of my soul.
"Minor Amplifications shall be applied to your body. Please refrain from dying" Declared the voice.
WAIT NOOOO----
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH---"
My shouting continued before the voice declared "Soul-Mana eyes shall be upgraded to \'Divine Eyes\' "
The pain started to concentrate into my eyes and frontal brain while spreading the rest of the pain equally among all the parts of my brain. After insurmountable pain for an incomprehensible amount of time, the pain circulating within the my eyes and my frontal brain started to subside while the pain within the rest of my brain had completely faded away.
Oh thank god that stopped. If that on any longer I might have wished to die on the spot. I\'m already wishing that but it would have been much worse! God! I just want to lose all my senses and go fully unconscious for a bit. That was too m-
"Congratulations, you have gained \'Divine eyes\'. They shall be limited to being extremely weak due to your weak vessel." Informed me the monotone voice
WELL F*CK YOU! YOU CAN TAKE THESE DIVINE EYES UP YOUR A-
"Divine calculation, Divine Thought acceleration and Divine Mind Fortitude shall be installed now. Divine aura shall be installed within your body. Divine mana shall stabilize your mana heart. These all shall be installed at the lowest power due to your weak vessel. Please refrain from screaming"
NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! STOP! F*CK! F*CK YOU! F*CK YOUR ENTIRE LINEAGE! F*CK YOUR EXISTANCE! I HOPE YOU GO TO HELL!
The pain carried on for what felt like minutes, hours and then days. My eyes, the right side of my chest and my brain were all burning at the same time. Eventually at some point during the first 10 hours, the pain started to become soothing and almost calming.
What the f*ck? Did my mind break or something? Why does this feel good now? Oh god! I hope my brain didn\'t break or something!
After a day and a half passed of this torture turning into a soothing pain instead, I started to think of my past life. The voice of a little girl resounded within my mind, asking me a single question.
"Are they worth it?"
"Who?" I asked the voice, wondering if I had finally gone crazy.
"The humans. They bring nothing but pain to you" immediately after those words were said, multiple instances from both this new world and the last flashed before my eyes. Every one of them were either cruel moments or simply disgusting. From the disgusting nobles to my previous step-sister.
"Are they worth it?" Asked the young female voice again, now sounding more like my soul flame.
"Well, some of them are." I answered honestly
"Once they no longer find a use for you, they will throw you away. You say you don\'t trust easily, you say you hate them, but do you really?0" again, numerous scenes of times where people back in high school made friends with me just to extort me, yet abandoned me the moment I needed them. Scene after scene flashed in front of me until it finally stopped on my previous father,
"Those who you think love you the most will throw you away the moment you are not needed. The moment you bring more trouble than good, they will throw you away like a receipt that is no longer usable. Trust is something no one should be able to get, because the moment they take it for granted, only you will be hurt. Let me ask you again, are they worth it?" questioned the girl\'s voice in a serious tone.
It took me a few minutes before I asked in a soft low voice "Do you think Aroura is like that? Do you think Dad is like that... Do you think--- Gen... is like that?"
"I have no way to know, I\'m just giving you the options that are on the table, yet what I can tell you is that most humans are selfish, pathetic, greedy, envious, a*sholes. You might have been lucky to find 2 if not 3 good ones, or this whole thing might be a lie. The decision is up to you.
So, do you think they are worth it?"
"...
Do I have to answer now?" I asked
"No. I just want you to think of my words whenever you even think of trusting anyone within this cruel world. Do not make the same mistakes you did in your last life. Anyway,, I\'ll be leaving now since your Divine Baptism should be ending some time in the next few hours.
Goodbye..."
"hmm? Wait! What are yo- AHHHHHH F*CK!" The pain had immediately returned and stayed for the next 3 hours until it finally started to subside again. The monotone voice that came from the abyss started to speak again, this time hopefully the last time it would need to speak. I listened to the next few words with hope in my eyes, waiting for it to say the torture was over and done with
"Congratulations of evolving into a semi-Divine being. All the steps have been completed while your vessel and mind had stayed in tact. You will not be able to advance any further than this unless you increase your vessel\'s strength. You shall now be transported back to your vessel, have a nice trip"
The voice\'s tone did not change throughout all the sentences said since I had come into this abyss space.
When I was finally transferred back into my \'vessel\', as the voice called it, I opened my eyes just to be greeted to a blinding light coming straight towards my eyes. My mind was instantly overloaded with information, forcing my eyes shut once again. Even though I couldn\'t see anything with my eyes, the area around me in a 360 perspective was completely visible. The 360 perspective gave me extreme nausea almost instantly, while opening my eyes only gave me a major headache from the immense amount of information flowing through my \'Divine Eyes\'.
Before I got up and alarmed the people around me, I tried to get used to the 360 perspective my passive aura gave me. It would barely be traceable normally, while maybe those familiar to the aura might feel the divine suppression. You might be asking, \'how do you know this?\'. Well, I can for some reason feel the basics of emotions, a little more advanced than my soul energy perception before, yet not enough to get a clear reading on someone.
I could still feel something pushing down on the guard\'s very being and soul flame, making them more anxious and wary than before. I can only imagine what would happen if they were to look straight into my eyes if my presence and awakening from my slumber alone caused this.
It took me many hours, almost a whole day, where Gen and Juilam would come and check on me. While Gen didn\'t notice I was awake, when she left and it was just me and Juilam left alone, he asked me
"Why are you pretending to be asleep? Is there something wrong or have we spoiled you too much?"
"My head feels like its been smashed my a boulder every time I open my eyes while my 360 perception makes me nauseas as f*ck. What do you expect me to do, get up?" I chuckled at my last joke while Juilam just stared at me with worry and disbelief at the same time.
"I\'ll give you a few days to rest up, but if you don\'t \'Wake up\' in a few days, Gen will insist on going to a normal human doctor. Also, can you supress that? It\'s kind of annoying" Juilam informed me and asked within the same breath.
"Oh the aura? I wish. If I could, I wouldn\'t have to get used to my new vision. My only problem would be my eyes and that would be easily fixed by just closing my eyes and feeling the mana in the surroundings." I sneered
"Can you still use normal magic?" Juilam inquired
I lifted my hand a circulated five blue candles, then swapped them for 5 small shards of ice, then 5 small pebbles and finally, 5 spheres of made of air.
"Okay good" Juilam sighed in relief before asking me "Can you use gravity? I had to make a bed engraved with runes to make the wood tough enough to not let you fall right through."
"Oh yeah I can, I\'ll just use it whenever I get up" I told Juilam before saying our goodbyes and allowing him to leave the room
-- 3 days later --
I had finally gotten slightly used to my 360 degree vision, but not my eyes. My eyes would simply give me too much information, not allowing me to filter out what I want. Clearly this was something I\'m supposed to train. Anyway, at most I could keep my eyes open for a single minute while trying to differentiate between the information gathered was nigh impossible.
I took Juilam\'s advice and \'woke up\' before informing the guards who informed the whole tribe, informing Gen in the process.
"PANY! YOUR AWAKE!" Cried Gen in joy of seeing me awake before hugging me. . I gave her a smile with my stiff face barley being able to move my cheeks up, therefore not being able to make my smile reach my eyes.
"ARE YOU OKAY? HOW DO YOU FEEL? DOES YOUR BODY HURT? CAN YOU STILL USE MANA? You\'re okay, right?!" She questioned rapidly, barley giving me time to answer any of her questions.
"Yes, good, no and yes" I replied almost instantly. She simply just hugged me tightly as all the pressure from her conscience had been lifted
"Good! Now we can go home and tell everyone you awakened before your birthday. Imagine their faces when they realize you had awakened even before you had turned 6 years old. You still have around 8 weeks till your birthday right? I\'ll help you get ready and we can g-" I held up my hand to finally make her shut up.
"Can\'t" I said with a nonchalant shrug
"What? Why!?" She asked in disbelief
"Well, I need to know how to walk again, how to see properly again, how to control my strength, maybe then we can talk about me going back. Right now I\'m going to be forced to stay here on my bed for the next few days and then I\'m going to learn how to walk without tripping over my own feet." I said while smiling slightly, which was the most I could actually do. My face still felt stiff and the words of the soul flame still resounded within my head whenever I looked at Gen.
"What? But we can get the best therapists back at home! Why do you want to stay here? We can go meet your mom and dad... Even Aroura! You can meet Aroura!" Gen tried to bargain.
"Thanks but Aroura can come here if she wants to see me. She had already starter her apprenticeship and if I go back now, I\'ll do her more harm than good" I remarked
"Bu-"
"NO BUTS!" I interrupted, stopping her sentence half way making sure she doesn\'t keep trying to bargain
After pouting for a few minutes, she finally asked a question that wasn\'t about going back
"So, what happened back in the lake?" She inquired while fidgeting with her fingers
"I awakened the light element" I said with a nonchalant tone, a little too fast since I hadn\'t gotten used to the the slight changes that the thought acceleration had caused.
"That\'s... it?" She questioned with a wavering tone
"What more could there be to it?" I asked with the same tone as earlier.
"Then why do you have to walk and see again?" She asked, her voice cracking a little, yet just a little.
F*ck me and my big mouth
"I don\'t know. My body just feels weird." I lied through my teeth. For some reason she started to pout more as sadness filled her soul
"Do you not want to go back because everyone in the mansion is human?" She finally asked
"Hmm? No? I have awakened the light element, where else would I learn to master it if it weren\'t here?" I said, genuinely shocked at the question, yet the sadness just grew in her soul, making me more perplexed as the seconds passed.
"Stop pouting! Do you think you would get rid of me that easily? I\'m going to return before my birthday by a week or two so don\'t get too relaxed with your new fiancée" I teased, making the sadness in her heart soften and become replaced by embarrassment. Her face turned red before I went for the finishing blow by voicing the sentence "Tell me when you are ready to deliver the baby".
Even though the sadness had not been supressed completely, it had been mostly replaced by embarrassment.
"Pany... Don\'t say stuff like that! It\'s embarrassing!" She muttered through the hands covering her face
"Yeah sure, whatever you say princess. Don\'t get too carried away with your one to one action, okay?" I told her while patting her head since she was still on the floor while I was on the bed. Unknowingly, I had looked at her with a motherly look which was only more pronounced due to my Divine Aura.
Gen stared at me for a good 10 seconds before she grabbed my hand to her heart and hugged me.
"I know you are hiding things from me, but I wont ask anything from you right now. I want to be trust worthy enough for you to be able to tell me without being pressured. I want to be your friend, not a companion. I love you just like a little sister, Pany... And I hope you someday see me and love me like an older sister too" She whispered in my ear
I couldn\'t help but inwardly smile, since it was near impossible to do so with my stiff facial muscles. I hugged her as lightly as I could while making sure I don\'t accidently hurt her before letting her go and saying our goodbyes. Juilam decided to take her away instead of being escorted by another wolf, since it would be a lot faster than moving my ground.
For the next week, I kept trying and to get used to walking and moving around while having 360 degree vision that I couldn\'t deactivate no matter what. It felt I had eyes on every area above the mid torso region, giving me no blind spots. At the day I would blind fold myself and practice walking while at night, I would practice using my eyes with Juilam, who seemed to know what happened to me yet didn\'t ask me for a single detail.
This went on till the end of the week where we decided to start our sparring sessions, getting used to using my divine mana and learning to control my body to its full extent, even though I\'m pretty sure I am going to fail at the first one.